IaM SYAZWANEY

what do i worth

2012-01-30T05:20:00.000-08:00

Have you ever feel lost? Like you think t thrhat nothing you do is good enough? Like everything you did before was worthless. I do. I used to do the job then i quit. I was great doing it and i like it. But after i retire sumone else pick up where i left and do it in a different level. It was beter than i did. I work my ass off f so what do i worh?or a job but yet nothing changed. When sumone else take over it brings new perspective and it became bigger. I lose. He win... He is the hiddwn jewel. Maybe i was not the right leader for it all. Maybe i was just not good enough... What do i worth actually??

only having fun

2012-01-09T03:09:00.000-08:00

I play paint ball, watch movies, go shopping... I only know hw to hv fun...o
i just have fun all d time
i didnt think
i just hv fun

he said.

Im stressed... Im hz.. My head felt like it want to blow up my energy being sucked
i had a tough time here
fighting for a job i dk i will get
but he didnt know rhat right...

I miss him bad. I want his support.
But eventually i didnt get it.
I want to travel far
but im scared.
I cant go anywhere but to be here
cuz nobody understand how it felt
to be alone when ppl said theyre with u
but theyre not n u r alas by urself.

U want support but no one gives u
but they claimed they gave n this put u in despair.

happy new year n merry Christmas!

2011-12-24T18:36:00.000-08:00

dear readers!
happy new year
since i lobe to make lists so here goes my new year plus christmas wish list!

1. a new set of blazer
i need this for my corporate dinner soon!

2. New black shoe to compliment

3. A red blouse to complete the parameters!

4. and a red casing to finish it all off!

5. New sweater for all purposes!

this is my jolly good christmass off!! my red lil christmas!! hahahahaha happy new year!!!!

my 22nd birthday wishlist!

2011-11-26T19:27:00.000-08:00

hey peeps, its d time of d year again(where im am currently smiling non stop). N unlike certain ppl who like to keep their birthday unknown or other certain ppl who like to pretend like they forgot about their bday when its most anticipated by them(they just want attention), im NOT like that!
I know when is my birthday n i cant hardly wait.

so dearest friends, just in case you're clueless on what to get me on my birthday, heres my wishlist(it'll make u n me both very hepi!!)

1. A brand new handphone!(since mine got battery problem and it can only last for 3 hours now.. sad) Ill say, a bb perhaps?? i want RED!!hehehe....

2. i would like to go for a vacation! a ticket to island hoping or Pulau Tiga is much appreciated!

3.i need a new screen for my beloved but old aspire 2920..(the screen broke down when i was in my third year in university)

4. I wanna go singapore! (i always wanted to go to sentosa Island, universal studio, eating chili crab, n bungee jump from that nation tallest tower!)

5. my untouched 2011 list, silver starry anklets!

6. New glasses n sunglasses for fun!

ah yes, you may check my 2011 wish list as well!
http://syazwaney.blogspot.com/2011/02/2011-wish-list.html

love xoxo,
syazwaney

2011-10-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

Im frantic when my friend grab me to this storewhen i have my eyes focused on the cinema monitor figuring out what do i want to watch. But honestly.. I was IN MY MOVIE MOOD THEN I SAW... TADA!!!!

ALL HAIL.. D NEW XPERIA PRO!! AN ANDROID WITH QWERTY PAD! SLEEKLY DESIGNED N EVEN GOT TOUCH SCREEN FUNCTION! with d size of 120.0 x 57.0 x 13.7mm and 4.7 x 2.2 x 0.5 inches! its gorgeous!!!! its 8 mega pix camera use Sony's Exmor R™ for mobile image sensor keeps your pictures sharp - even in low light!! cool!!!!! ahah! my friend juct couldn't wait....

Xperia PLAY!!

2011-08-12T19:11:00.000-07:00

totally catch my eye!! combining phone-android- playstation n psp!!! this is totally awwwsome!!!!

lookslike tipical android at glance.. but when it slide.... OMG!!! its PSP n Playsttation on d movve!!!!

aprt fm that it also hv 720p HD video capture option with the 5MP camera!!

Samsung Galaxy s2

2011-08-10T06:49:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend called n asked me my dream phone? dh~ android is in season, so Iam thinking Galaxy S, 2!!! only the slimmest, lightest n fastest phone to date!

its about 100g, 125.3 x 66.1 x 8.5mm in size, 4.3 inches screen with super amoled view( i want that!!)n 8.1MP camera!! inside is 1.2GHz processor with dual core intel, did i mention, it has 1080p video recording??!!!

im sooo liking this noww!!!(n it has all andorid should have- duh, angry bird n pretty pet saloon neva be this good aint it??)

Xperia Xtab

2011-06-13T20:17:00.000-07:00

it seem that anywhwere i go theres always sumthing that grab my attention.with Ipad, n Blackpad, n galaxy tab.. everyone seems to go for tabs lately... maybe its the tab century dat we live in now..

enough with dat crap.. iam looking at Xperia xtab the other day on the net.. my friend keep buzzing about it since 3 weeks ago but ended up buying galaxy tab since its not in the market at the time yet..(my friend is a type that hardly wait)so IDK why suddenly i have the urge to surf abut this lil monster.

it has relatively same features as any other android tablet machine... obviously its touch screen, its not just another xperia... with 7 inch Reality Display it also come with 62 GB of internal storage. Awwsome!!! it has 8.1 camera at d n 1.3 up front.

i wish i had one!!

Blackberry blackpad!

2011-04-22T05:10:00.000-07:00

ipad rival had arrived!!! enhance with built in camera and a 8.9-inch touch screen, this will be the tablet 2 have!(if only i have d money!!)lagi smaller den iPad!!

my destination list

2011-04-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

my top 10 destination choice! (i wanna go!)>.<

1) bandung, indonesia
2) phuket, thailand
3) singapore
4) rantau panjang, kelantan
5) taiping, perak (night safari, dolly)
6) Johor bahru, Johor
7) jalan kota, melaka (a famosa bla3...)
8) pulau perhentian& pulau redang & rantau abang, terengganu (beach!)
9) langkawi
10) penang(pasembur!, nasik kandar)

2011-03-31T03:08:00.000-07:00

aku mengganggu
aku berharap
aku kecewa
aku yang lara

plagiat & sambil lewa

2011-03-25T03:06:00.000-07:00

apa perasaan kalau kita sikit npunya bersungguh buat kerja. tiba2 bila tengok kerja orang lain, sikit nak meletup kepala.. hai.. dunia dunia.. silala jangan buat kerja sambil lewa. kumpulan oh kumpulan.. sebab ni saya suka kerja sendirian..

plagiat. kot iye pon nak copy teda la sampai 100% sama kan??? ni kalo embos paper dia atas paper gua mmg cun bersih! sebab tiru habis habisan. geram! internet bukan tempat copy paste oke. sebab tu mak bapak anta pegi skolah, cikgu ajar 'REPHRASE' sungguh geram!! mustahil cara kau dan aku olah sama kan????

Nikon D7000

2011-03-16T18:16:00.000-07:00

Nikon D7000 id out! well that is more or less what the people from the shop used to tell me when if surveying for DSLR. hahaha... never the less D 7000 is an advance DSLR(given the price of almost RM 3800++. not quite affortable for fellow student but wats d harm of sharing a lil bit of information...

SPECs!
dat ull run out of memmory)
1) MULTI card SLot!( dun b afraid )
2) Cleanest camera with high ISo up to 25, 600! how cool is dat!
3) 39 focus foint!
4) full HD movie-recording function "D-Movie", compatible with external stereo microphone featuring high image quality and operability!
5)Auto focus! If the subject's still, the D7000 locks focus. If the subject's moving, the D7000 tracks it.
6)its 16.9 MEGA PIX! what else will u want!

this superbly handy but expensive so i cant buy it camera is soo cool.. just a heads up if you wantes to be a professional, ah not 2 mention if is compatible wih ANY of the lens (NIkkOR) in the market! great huh??? me lovin it!
^^~

BIASISWA TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN

2011-03-09T07:08:00.000-08:00

*ini bukan cerita benar!!(aku reka supaya org senang paham!)-aku x dpt biasiswani...

aku bukan la budak genius.. kalo genius da lame aku ikut jejak Amalina... aku mcm tu lebih kurang... tp aku dpt biasiswa Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman. best kan?
so apa ak dapat?

Kadar Biasiswa adalah seperti berikut:
(i) Yuran Pengajian mengikut kadar yuran sebenar yang dituntut oleh IPT.

(ii) Elaun Sara Hidup bernilai RM1,000 sebulan.

(iii) Elaun Buku bernilai RM500 / semester.

(iv) Elaun-elaun berkaitan pengajian seperti tesis, elaun latihan amal / kertas projek, elaun alat perkakas
(sekali setahun).

(v) Tambang penerbangan (2 hala) sekali setahun (untuk pelajar Semenanjung yang belajar di
Sabah & Sarawak dan pelajar Sabah & Sarawak yang belajar di Semenanjung).

best kan?
acana nak dapat?
SYARAT-SYARAT PERMOHONAN

(a) Syarat Asas
(i) Warganegara Malaysia.

(ii) Umur tidak melebihi 25 tahun pada tarikh tutup permohonan.

(iii) Baru tamat Semester Satu *, Tahun Pertama Ijazah Sarjana Muda di mana-mana Institusi Pengajian Tinggi Tempatan dalam negara.

(b) Syarat Kelayakan Akademik dan Ko-kurikulum

(i) Memperoleh keputusan cemerlang dalam SPM / STPM / Matrikulasi/ Asas.

(ii) Kepujian dalam Bahasa Malaysia dan Bahasa Inggeris di peringkat SPM.

(iii) Memperolehi PNGK / CGPA minimum 3.50 dalam peperiksaan Tahun Satu (1),program Ijazah Sarjana Muda.

(iv) Memiliki kualiti kepimpinan dan penyertaan yang cemerlang/ aktif dalam ko-kurikulum.

tp ada syarat tambahan!

(i) Penerima BIASISWA TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN diperlukan berkhidmat untuk negara sekurang-kurangnya lima tahun selepas tamat pengajian yang ditaja.

hmm.. bound by a contract.. tp tapa... abes grad dpt keja....

untuk tahun ni, permohonan habis 31 mac! so aplly la cepat2.. acana apply?? follow link ni. tp bukan sesenang mo apply... sebab..Semua Permohonan mesti dibuat melalui Timbalan Naib Canselor (Hal Ehwal Pelajar) universiti anda. Jika tidak ia akan ditolak....

oke..ada beberapa minggu lagi b4 biasiswani ditutup.. so hurry hurry hurry!!

chayok guys!

Nikon D3100

2011-03-09T04:14:00.000-08:00

my cousin had been begging me(wont call it begging more 2 asking over and over and over hahahaha..) for me to survey a type of DSLR which is easy 2 use, suitable for a beginner, create miracle picture, have astonishing features and most importantly AFFORDABLE for students like us.. hehehehehe.....

so i go on surveying and camera diving for a while.. then i found this! the perfect gear for my cousin!! NIKON D3100!! hahaha.. thank god for making my search easy!!!

why is this gear purrrfect 4 my cousin??

whats more important 2 a beginner than GUIDE!
n NIKON got this awwwsome guide mode 4 easy understanding of the function. n good news is its been refined!!! it has been refined to make most camera operations even easier, from shooting to image playback and editing to the application of camera settings, regardless of the user's skill level.

next it has assist images. this will show the effect of various camera settings, giving users an idea of the results they can expect with specified settings. For example, when "Soften backgrounds" is selected and an aperture value is specified, the assist image displayed in the monitor changes to show the effect that aperture setting will have on images. This allows users to confirm that images will appear as they intended prior to shooting and reduces the number of unsuccessful shots!
great ey??

it can record VIDEOS!!D3100 wahas this briliant Full HD video capabilities. This is captured at 24 frames per second and in widely accessible MPEG4 format, which here gets its own camcorder-style record button. nice huh!! ^^

one mo awwsome feature is Scene auto selector built in! what is it? sy that u dont know what mode to use but the momment is nice n u want 2 capture it, use the scene auto selector!. When live view mode is enabled in Auto or Auto (flash off) mode, the camera automatically analyses the scene and selects the appropriate shooting mode from Portrait, Landscape, Close up or Night portrait. This function allows users achieve the intended images while leaving all settings up to the camera.

the body of this this DSLR is super nice.. to mention that it is the most light weighted DSLR so far, n those rubber grip makes holding the real thing is more comfortable! ok.. so far i had surveyed and the kit comes around RM 1950.00 + 18-55mm and 55-300mm Nikkor Twin Lens Kit!(this is cheap-considering the exclusive features!).... (ok now im jeleous over my cousin!!! mine was more xpensive... but her features is oso nice!!T_T)

oke... this is special post just 4 u my luvly cousin!!!
p/s : Luv U cuz!!!!

FZ100 outdoor photo review

2011-02-28T16:15:00.000-08:00

its been a while since i had my fz100 n took it out for a test photography. sooo, heres some shoots that i find pleasant! well, at least iam!! in adequate lighting fz100 works wonders!

scene- beach mode

the colors r bit enhance, this is out of my burst collection, going for 5 frame persecond, the shots r defined n the noise are quite low(editing in photoshop wise)this were taken on 1m zoom, with default setting, iso 800 and only 0.34 sec shutter lag!

zooming wise

this one is trying out the zoom for my baby... there are bigger scene n focoused object. using IA technology but shaky hands n bad for zooming.. even i had to held my breath while snapping!!

haisy!! wrong photo upload... but nvm... still its sumthing dat goes like this....

movie mode!

only one word, Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!!!!!
seriously.. full HD of 1080!! try 2 beat that!! the videos r super nice n the pixel r super define!!! its like.. i wanted 2 d d one im recording tru my fz 100 lens than the real thing taht is suppose 2 be my subject!!!! 10/10 star rating!!!
i tried 2 upload it sev time but it failed... huhuhu.... mybe next time!!!

sorry

2011-02-17T16:52:00.001-08:00

i didnt mean to be so cold
im sorry ive been that way

i never tried so hard to pleased someone
definitely i didnt see this coming

i never see that this(what i did) was wrong
untill the day it all went wrong

i think i need a miracle to make it trough this one
now i just dont know what to do
nor where should i go
i need to hold on to you
i cant let u go
not now not never

i such a crybaby..
but only when iam with u
i know that im addicted to u
but now i dont know what do i do
without u...

bagai sang suria menceriakan pagi

2011-02-17T00:19:00.000-08:00

hati oh hati
cerialah semula
biar mendung berarak pergi
jauh2 dari hati

jiwa oh jiwa
tenanglah semula
buang semua kacau bilau
buang jauh nun di seberang sana

but we cant help it kan?
when mendung
maka ya ia mendung
hujan?
maka ya kita basah.

luka maka ya sakit
sakit maka ya pedih
pedih maka ya nangis
nangis maka bengkak la mata

suka duka perkara biasa
hidup tak lepas dramanya
biarpun ending kita yg tentukan
tp b4 dpt ending 2 byk konfliknya
narrator kata baru sedap plot cerita

kadang2 aku mahu rasa hidup bosan
hidup yg plain buat perkara rutin
kalau tiada terlampau suka
maka tiada terlampau duka
semua moderate saja.

ah tapi aku gadis abad ini
aku sukakan cabaran
aku mahukan pengalaman
aku simpan kenangan
biar jadi pengajaran
sentiasa bawa diri hati2
aku masih bernyawa

sandaranku
kau perlu tahu
sedarlah wahai jantungku
bangun dari lena mu
selagi kau berdegup
selagi itu aku masih bernyawa
dan selagi itu kita masih memainkan drama
yang tak lepas menuntut kita memainkan watak utama

aku ter-emo lagi

2011-02-16T15:14:00.000-08:00

bila hajat x tercapai
bila kehendak x kesampaian
bila kemahuan x dituruti..
aku jd begini

hmm...
aku sudah kata kan
dari awal dlu
aku deman
byk kemahuan

kau yang menerima
kau yg melayani kau yg menuruti
jd jgn salahkan aku jika aku jd manja
dan manja lagi

tidak
aku x slahkn kau
hanya emosi ku menguasai diri
di kala itu aku x dapat berfikir jelas
serabut? x keruan?
tidak aku lebih teruk dari itu

tangan memegang buku
bacalh wahai mata
fahamilah wahai hati
tapi tidak
dihadapan buku itu air jernih ini menitik lagi

sabarlah wahai jiwa
tabahlah wahai hati
dunia memang begini
tidak semua yang kita mahu, dapat
semua bergantung pada rezeki

tp aku hiba
ku pilih yang paling baik dari gerobok
ku perindah segalanya
ku tepek keindahan sementara
tp akhirnya aku di sini
mengelap contengan yg kubuat td....

ku tatap kotak itu
tidak baik ia terbazir
ambillah sahabat
aku relakan
...........

oh sepi sepi ku....

mentari pagi bawakan embun
sejukkkan hati.....

a lil means a lot

2011-02-14T08:36:00.000-08:00

hmmm.. did u noe??
did u notice??
LIKE!

2day im x in a mood 4 anything
everything feels like a rush,
so it seems incomplete
n im soo not into it..
like im wanting more time 2 revised it all over again.

but this evening
im inspired
idk how but i sure noe wen..

way 2 mens heart is tru his stomach people say
ok.. im gonna feed him good!
all those cute lil words he said
makes me wanted 2 go up in the sky n fly

those gestures
those eyes
those looks
that face!
LIKE

true... sumtime a lil does means a lot!

hajat yang tercapai akhirnya....^^~

2011-02-12T22:43:00.000-08:00

heheheh... sungguh bayak wish list ku... tp thank god.. dah ada yg tercapai.. ^^

1. my fz 100!!!

2. my silver name necklace

3. my trancend 500g portable

heheheh.. satisfied satisfied!!

2011 wish list

2011-02-10T08:01:00.000-08:00

okey.. i got tons in my head.. but there are several that keeps poping outta my head.. hahha.. so heres my wishlist...(February is not that late rite??)

1. silver name pendant necklace

2. new compact camera

3. silver stary anklets

4. new aspire2920 screen

5. to go to singapore

6. a new boho skirt

7. new portable hardisk

8. android phone- blackberry bold pls!

9. majolica majorca dolly doll mascara

10. new clothes.. maybe dress or sumthing...

hmmm... its great wasnt it.... huhuhu.. i wanted all of these!!!- but im outta budget!

si pelupa edisi dua

2011-02-10T07:31:00.000-08:00

tak suka
dia taw ak x suka
tp dia buat juga

sakit hati?
sakitla!
sapa kata x?
sakit pala?
memang!

dia p jalan ak tngal
balas mesej lambat2
balik lewat!

geram!
tahu sudah org x suka..
buat juga..

rindu sebenarnya.....
malas mo ngaku..
ok aku bengong....

Coolpix P100

2011-02-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

ok this time its about coolpix p100.. hohoho call me out dated but this lil monster did more than just HD video.. 10.3 Megapixels for stunning prints as large as 16 x 20 inches. Sharp resolution to capture the finest details, crop creatively and produce incredible enlargements it captures 10 frame per second enabling high-speed continuous shooting for full 10MP images!!(whoaaa!!!!)

5-way VR Image Stabilization System

-Optical VR Image Stabilization by sensor shift minimizes the effect of camera shake
-New Hybrid VR Image Stabilization by combining sensor shift and electronic stabilization minimizes the effect of camera shake
-Motion Detection automatically detects moving subjects and adjusts shutter speed and ISO setting to compensate for camera shake and subject movement
-High ISO up to 3200 at full resolution capability helps give you better results when shooting in low light or capturing fast-moving subjects.
-Nikon’s original Best Shot Selector (BSS) automatically takes up to 10 shots while the shutter is pressed and saves the sharpest image

cool huh?

dats not all..
subject Tracking will track a moving subject to ensure sharp focus. The camera will automatically track your subject – even if they temporarily move out of the frame

Scene Auto Selector automatically recognizes the scene in your picture and adjusts camera setting

Active D-Lighting adjusts highlights, shadows and contrast while shooting

SUPER COOL!!

my fav part is Face-Priority AF Nikon’s face-finding technology that automatically focuses on up to 12 faces and Skin Softening smoothes skin tone at three different levels for optimal portraits!! hahah.. bye2 pimples!!!! n helloo smooth looking skin(on pic!);p

wat cha think??

Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ40

2011-02-04T02:57:00.000-08:00

ok.. im no expert but this is a supercool ultra zoom experience camera!
its not as cool as its brother (Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ100).. but lets just say its enough for an amateur like me...

hell! i didnt know much bout camera. but my friends does, think most of them are my big influence(dem u guys..^^)so im taking a risk by buying this super expensive camera(considering my current budget) to quench my thirst for SLR...

ok.. this is not purely SLR.. its just dat its shaped like one n the grip is heaven!! Slotting in where the FZ38/35 left off, it features the same 25-600mm equivalent. lens as the FZ100, but with a 14.1MP CCD sensor and simpler 230K dot 3.0 inch fixed LCD (as opposed to the FZ100's CMOS sensor and high-res screen)ok enough comparing!! obviously fz100 is better but let me tell u d spec of this little monster!

The FZ40 offers AVCHD Lite 720p HD video recording, manual shooting modes and 'Sonic Speed' auto-focus system that the company says offers the industry's fastest focus times. great right??? HD!! not only that it offers powerful 24x Optical Zoom Hybrid Digital Compact Camera with HD Movie Recording DMC-FZ45 Offering Active, Creative Photo and Movie not 2 mention a whole lot new satisfaction if cam whoring!!! this is truly wat i call an investment!

My Color mode, which is popular in the LUMIX G Micro System cameras, is a special option that gives free reign to the user's creativity. With a variety of options including new Pin Hole, Film Grain, High Dynamic and High Dynamic B&W, the My Color mode makes it easier and more fun to create interesting, expressive images by shooting images with most intensive color, brightness and saturation parameters. The popular My Color mode is available also in movie recording giving the user a wider range of expressive possibilities to explore together with the Creative Movie mode.(this is wat i called photoshop on d go!!)

in addition, the Intelligent Resolution technology is always activated in the iA mode which results in the clearer and higher picture quality in every photo and movie with extended zoom range equivalent to 32x optical zoom by the Intelligent Zoom.

oh trully!!! i cant wait 2 get my hand on this!!! (grab grab)

cheers,
love n hate,
waney..

FACEBOOK IS CLOSING DOWN!!!

2011-01-10T05:40:00.000-08:00

ok i just heard..
dun mind me being among the last to know the news..
but if what ever theyre saying is true.. then FACEBOOK!
my lovely FACEBOOK is truly gonna shut down.
according 2 a reliable source, FB is gonna close down about march or so..
15 march 2011 to be exact...
what will my life be with out facebook u say?
horrible!!

ok.. i know there many other social network outhere but so far EVERYONE seems to use facebook.
it will be pain in the A** to add my freinds n the list of people i know back in a new social network.. not to mention my PICTURES!!! n STATUS!!!!-es!

do u think its possible 4 u 2 add those persons u add in fb back in the new network??
itll take time!! n time is precious!!

OK lets see wat does FB does for me n y l <3 it so much:

1)connect me back to my friends(since im far n theyre far n skype n YM line is not that good, n calling requires CREDIT! which WE STUDENTS r lack of!)

2)reconnect me 2 my old long lost friends (this takes quite along process, the friend who is actually a friend of my current friend-im not forgetting my old friend, its just how i differentiate them is sumone I KNOW!!!)

3) tells me class schedule (i never check my own time table or class schedule!! TQ FB, TQ FRIENDS!!)w/o fb how am i gonna know wat class i hv

4)it provide me a space of discussion w/o having 2 attend meeting(saves time, energy-since im at 5th floor,most importantly im meeting A LOT of PEOPLE at once!)

5)it provide me a wall!!(i dun v 2 xplain on this)

6)got tagged pictures on various whoring occasion.

7) got tagged noted containing exam hints!

8) got tagged videos my friend recorded!

9) got cute application!!n games(cmon, dun say u neva paly farmville, or mafiawars or, cityville n use horoscope,and mood weather???)

10)cuz i cant take my eyes off it!1( i even fb during lecture.-i noe its bad but its a way keeping me awake!)

so ppl!! c how important FB is!!!
huh...
dun believe me?
check out this link...

Mark Zuckerberg!! pls dun mess wit my life!!!

MMXI

2011-01-01T22:08:00.000-08:00

bye 2010
bye misery
bye hurt
bye despair
bye clumsy
bye old life
bye dissapointment
bye devastation

hello 2011
helo life
helo love
helo smile
helo warm
helo success

life is short
so i wanna live it sweet
no forciny
no telling
no stabbing
certainly no disliking...

honesty in demand
love is a must
remember your love ones
forget your despair

forget the guilt
embrace the truth
everything in your future
is starting from the thing u do
now or never, its never an option
its more like a summon
that must be done

create your life
fake your heart..
let it be certain
that d journey needs sacrifice
maybe im not one of them
but im certainly one of it..

im faking my heart
im blinding my eye
im closing my ear
i tie my tongue
i bite my lips shut

what ever hepen hepens
what will hepen we decide
let it be good or bad
i will still fight
fight till d end..

masa yang tidak tercapai

2010-12-14T21:40:00.000-08:00

tenung skrin laptop
putih....
tengok dining depan
putih jugak...
tengok lantai
pun putih...

kosong...
sama macam otak saya sekaang..

keaadaan sepi
saya sepi
saya sunyi
saya perlu jadi bizi
tp bila bz saya jdi mamai lagi

lupa diri
lupa kerja..
apa nak jadi
tak mahu nasib buruk menyelubungi

apanak jadi??
buntu lagi...

si pelupa edisi satu

2010-12-01T02:59:00.000-08:00

renung dinding
kosong
sama mcm dinding hati saya
rasa kan?

pandang laut,
gelora
indah
tp tgk pn x kan....

perut bunyi krong3
hujankan
sejuk maka lapar sekejap2 singgah
tapi awak lupa
nak wat cemana kan..

jeling botol air
rasa nak campak
biar kemek
mcm perasaan sy skrg

buat kerja bagai nak rak
harapan tak kesampaian
lupa..

tak apalah...
tp harini sy jiwa2
emosi sedang memakan diri
saya jadi sepi.. dan sepi lagi

AKU.DIA.RAKAN2

2010-11-29T17:35:00.000-08:00

perlukah menjauh dgn alasan
"xmo kaco korng. kn dah bahagia besama"
when all this while u guys had been
"wani jon this, jom that.. did u noe bout..... "
now all i heard is
"yalah, org 2 dah ad aixe kan...."

rarely heard
rarely talk
rarely hang out

wats my life current status?

i used 2 luv my life
i still am..
but i used 2 be dis carefree-do what i want-hang out with everyone- type og girl
now?
..........

they said, thye feel hepi 4 me..
good
they say im lucky 2 hv him
good
they say im happier now that im with him
good

they say dey dun want 2 hang out cuz kacau daun
MISTAKE
they say i owez went out with him only wen they x ajak me out?
MISTAKE
they say they r not needed wen i hv him wen i owez hv him b4
MISTAKE

this is d situation
before and after
which makes me pretty sad
n obviously im touched by d ignorance around...

used 2:
lepak 2gether
huhaa huhaa new story
tellin2 wats happening in life
talk bout dis gojes guy sumone just met
go karoke-ing till throat goes sore
eating 2gether...
cathing up with each other
laughing @ each other..

now?
no more

so bc 2 d conclusion....
he is d only one dat i hv left...
wont u understand why i spend most of my time dating?

my hearts go la la la la...

2010-11-25T18:07:00.000-08:00

JIWANG MODE: ON!

hahaha... ok i have 2 admit.. im more on the heart stuff lately... not because i malas want 2 update my activity(banyak kot!!)but cuz hearts matter matters these days...

do you know that song goes
"begini lamunan asmara
sehari bagaikan setahun ,lamanya
terpisah di saat rindu yg membara
kau jauh dari mata..."

amy mastura- lamunan asmara

dat is exactly what i felt currently. huh... missing dat person real bad!! i wish i can wrote da name but i cant!! T_T... he likes secrecy so i do respect his privacy...

if you do know suzzane's song's muah
sing it with me!!!

Sungguh aku sayang
Sungguh aku rindu
Ha ha ha usah kau ragu-ragu

Sungguh aku cinta
Sungguh aku mahu
Ha ha ha ku tidak malu-malu

Sayang oh sayang
Ku sayang kepadamu (muah)
Aku cintakan dirimu
Rindu oh rindu
Ku rindu padamu (muah)
Janganlah kau pergi dariku

Papa tolonglah (papa)
Mama tolonglah (mama)
Aku sedang mabuk cinta
Dengan si dia (ah ha)
Si jantung hatiku (ah ha)
Yang ku puja ku cinta selalu

Mama tolonglah
Papa tolonglah
Jodohkanlah aku dengannya

Hati hati yang merindu
Inginkan belaiannya
Hari hari yang berlalu
Indahnya ku rasakan
Jiwa jiwa (jiwa jiwa)
Ku meronta (ku meronta)
Bila jauh di sisimu (di sisimu)
Berjanjilah kasih
Berjanjilah sayang
Hanyalah aku di hatimu

Mama tolonglah
Papa tolonglah
Jodohkanlah aku dengannya

adoi.. im drunk!!
love drunk!!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!

kes parah dah daku nia....
isk3!

u!! me miss u!!!
<3

my prayers for now

2010-11-14T18:51:00.000-08:00

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

tiba-tiba kan??
tulah..
org slalu ckp
langit x slalunya cerah
ada masa mendung dan hujannya
laut x slalunya tenang
ada musim gelora dan monsoonnya
hati x slalunya berbunga
ada masa luka dan sakitnya..

eh? ade ke org ckp mcm aku ckp
ah biarkan....

hmm..
aku dah selalu sgt mcmni..
parahni..
mcm im losing my old self

keja tetep keja..
lab tetap lab
kelab tetap kelab
hidup rasa makin gelap

pretending is not something im good at
im usually good with honesty
being another person thats wasnt me..
huh.. this university had taught me the lesson of hypocracy

again.. im tumbling up and down
drowning in a word i myself created
wishing for a perfect everything..
but everything is just ist there in reality

u came fulfilling my fantasy
so i began to ask more and more
u brought my dreams to life

now im crushing it all again
bits to bits
only i can understand
im selfish i noe
but lets see how long u can keep up with me..
ive warned u i do...

think baby think....

im a mess to handle
hard but fragile
fun but sulky
hepi but blues
yup thats me

i demand a lot
i gave a lot
i want a lot..

huh..
i hate it when my heart got that crack2..
pedih wen i applied antiseptic 2 it..
sakit wen it heals
den dat crack crack again....
pain in the A** kan..
haisy..
wat 2 do.. fragile...
so i pray..

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

confession part 1

2010-11-12T22:23:00.000-08:00

kau tanya padaku
apa pandangan ku padamu
aku tekedu
terdiam membisu
sebenarnya aku malu
malu mengungkap kata
merungkai bicara hati..
ahhh.. bukan kau tidak tahu
tp kita manusia perlu assurance & kanformasi
ak paham dan mengerti
maka terciptalah puisi ini

ini kata hati
lahir dari nurani
andai terkesan pada diri
hanya maaf ku dahului..

kau sabar
itu paling utama
kau cool itu yg kedua..
romantik? u can be..
but most importantly u c..
kau buat aku hepi...

runtun hati bila x jumpa
rindu nak bersua muka
hati jd gundah gulana
makan kenyang tp tdo x lena..

sensitif itu kurang...
emosi terluah kadang2..
rahsia tersimpan kedap x jarang...

kau perahsia aku tahu
lebih kurang misterius g2...
tapi itu yg attract aku
terasa ingin tahu & curious selalu
mcm hari2 ada surprise menunggu...
[LIKE]

hahaha...

sampai sini dulu part ini
kita sambung dilain kali
bukan mengelat selamatkan diri
cuma simpan kata2 utk di lain hari...

<3~

to be or not to be

2010-11-10T03:51:00.000-08:00

i thought im d luckiest girl in the world wen i noe about it.
i noe.. pasan gla kan??
tp pecayalah im d hepiest gal on earth pd masa itu..

we hang out, we stare, we laugh, we share
we attend to each other desire
seeing u fulfill mine,
n seing me fulfill yours..

days get older
we grew mesra-er..
n d day neva had enough hour in our clock.

the holes in my heart r filled
as u fill my days with colors.
im hepi seyesly!!

den i get more demanding by d day
sory its in my nature
everything is not enough
but i want it..
like so bad..
but u got matters to attend to
stuff to do
beside being with me
i noe i ask a lot
yes im a fisherman now...
i sell fish!

im holding it all down now
im retrieving myself back
getting into my priority list
i want to get a grip of my life dat i lost sumwhere...

dang, can u at least gimme the strength 2 do it
i require attention, love n commitment
all those things dat u say u gv
deep inside ur heart where i couldnt c it..

dun wory
ill be owkey
i think
soon,
but not now
now im mending myself
even moo cant chill me

my forsaken heart that i took back...

hati bentuk heart

2010-11-07T15:45:00.000-08:00

heart shaped hati.. boleh x?? hahaha... curently in drunk state.. n craving 4 mo.. owez more!! OMG... LOVE DRUNK! hahahahahah..

Lonestar - Im So In Love With You

2010-10-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

everytime our eyes meet
this feeling inside me
is almost more than i can take
baby when you touch me
i can feel how much you love
and it just blows me away
ive never been this close to anyone or anything
i can hear your thoughts i can see your dreams

i dont know how you do what you do
im so in love with you
it just keeps gettin better
i wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
forever and ever
every lil thing that you do baby im amazed by you

the smell of your skin
the taste of your kiss
the way you whisper in the dark
your hair all around me
baby you surround me
and touch every place in my heart
oh it feels like the first time everytime
i wanna spend the whole nite in your eyes

i dont know how you do what you do
im so in love with you
it just keeps gettin better
i wanna spend the rest of my life
with you by my side
forever and ever
every lil thing that you do baby im amazed by you

every lil thing that you do
im so in love with you it just keeps gettin better
i wanna spend the rest of my life
with you by my side
forever and ever

every lil thang that you do
ohh every lil thing that you baby im amazed by... you

p/s: akhir-akhirni jiwang sikit...
OMG.. im flying sky high...
kena berpijak di bumi yg nyata!!

im in luv...

2010-10-17T14:27:00.000-07:00

mungkin pas ni kena stat dgr lagu sdg ingin bercinta, mungkin lepas ni akan pkai bj pink, mngkin pasni akan sentesa senyum memanjang..
mugkin pasni jadi satu coretan indah.. <3

realiti atau fantasi

2010-10-07T10:03:00.000-07:00

hah! i didnt noe how 2 put this..
lets just say im having a hard time this time separating reality fm fantasy!
OMG!!
Y?
explaination...

1. major love life progress (after being broken hearted 4 so long..)
2. a workshop well done- or so i say...(credits 2 aupa, acap, fuzah, dayah, liza, jannah n all demi-members)
3. change money currency 2 USD.. even lil high kot die pnya rate.. RM 3.14 per dolar
4. bought stuff 2 be eaten..^^ maggi mee im loving u!
5. visa approved!
6. claim granted!
7. new song intrigued me!
8. hanging out oh yeah-= succeeded!!
9. jalan2 a lot- credits 2 aizee
10. amek bmbar kos freely 2day!!

^^~ my day complete!

a quote i like

2010-10-06T11:05:00.000-07:00

If you prick us, do we not bleed? If you tickle us, do we not laugh? If you poison us, do we not die? and If you wrong us, shall we not revenge? (William Shakespeare- died 23 April 1616)

i owez like this quote. it shows dat everything we do 2 people have effect.. example.. u throw a stone, ppl will hurt 2 3 times harder.. hmm.. what goes around comes around shud be the easiest way 2 explain it...

sumthing reminisce me to write this on my wall.. its an incident actually when a good fren of mine said he'll vomit @ the sight of my face! alah! go ahead la... like i care.. as long is my liver is hepi, im hepi..

im not mad actually.. its just dat its been a while since i majok wit him.. so i decided its time!! hahahaha.. ^_^

a conversation

2010-09-27T11:10:00.000-07:00

a friend asked me sumthing one day...(more or less)
" r u in luv wit ***?"
"hell no!! why do u ask??"
"tell me da truth n b honest"
"honestly?"
"yup"
"NO!"
" c'mon!!"
"reeely im not"
"fine wat eva u say.. im not convinced!"
"im tellin u da truth!!"

at least that is what i felt dat time... my heart didnt go doki2 wen im wit ***.... neither wen i was thinking bout him so im guessing there is nothing... aish.... yala... its my own heart, i think i shud noe better.. its nothing like dat time...

mad? no im not.. its just dat im evaluating myself again after being asked. hurmm... ok, i do like him but not 2 d xtend of love?? wow!! love is a very powerful word.. even i dint dare 2 use it so much...play2 2 besa la... seyesly, i rarely meant those words... im a hypocrite, i know.. im very good @ being ms nice-but-not-so-nice-when-everyone's-not-around...

reevaluating myself makes me notice 1 thing. the way im showing affection to those i care can create confusion... shud i change the way iam?.. argh.. its getting awkward.. even just 2 think about it... huh.. thios is mentally challenging...

now everytime im alone im thinking bout this... silly? i know.. it just happens... y? idk... is it the words?
may b..
is it reality check?
could be..

by the end of the day.. i was left confused and confunded i guess.... maybe i should re think my action thus ppl wouldnt mistaken it to anything its not.. haisy... i want love.. but im not dat desperate.. lets say my fate is with him, i do accept.. happily! but 4 now, no.. i dun hv any candidates in mind.. but i do know he wasnt in my list...

tell me ppl... why shud i think this over and over again...
why shud i care on how ppl look at me?
wh shud i be like this??

argh,,, jiwwa kacau.. i guess...

bitter sweet raya..

2010-09-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

i dont know why.. it always come up as a heavy matter 2 me wen it come 2 frens n family... dearest readers, its RAYA!!! Salam Eid! MAaf zahir batin! ^^~ owkey enough with the introduction... heres my side of story...
letme refresh back fm d momment i was far xited-2-death cuz finally im going back 2 sabah fm Tganu!! it was a blast!!! ^^~ but hres d details.. i went 2 book my ticket(actually just conforming- da tiket r bought by Sabah Fed-yeye sabah fed!!<< me luv u!!)i make my fred lost d chance 2 atted his FYP meeting.. later i know dat there were several problem 2 d FYP dat he is doing(dear god, i think i sinned) AIZEE, sorrri!!! dat s all i could sa.. me is feeling guilty... wuwuwuwuwuw.... silly me... aint i... he said dun wory' xda papa', but i just... @ the bottom of my heart i just know iam one of d reason he missed d meeting... T____T...

later dat i know dat i miss looked my presentation date causing me to stay back in da university one extra day!!! OMG!! its me being silly!! i know.... thankfully i got FUZAH staying back wit me( she just couldnt stand seeing me being lonely-sweeeeeeet!!!)<< me luv her>> <3~

den.. luckily my fl8 fm KT 2 KL 2 all good w/o hassle... but!! my fl8 fm KL- KK got prob.. dlayed so late dat i break my fast in da car(x smpat smpi rumah-sedih... br mo sungkai awal kan..)n i missed my plan 4 d day(i need 2 do my passport).. aisehmen... 3 jam pulak tu i was stuck @ KLIA!!!---> bengang cuz reeeeely wanan go home at dat momen.. oomma poguspo!!!

raya??
its a blast i shud say!! i enjoyed this yer raya mo den years b4.. went raya-ing till lewat malam-awl pagi.. meeting old friends, catching up with each other... i just missed d momments n im hoping 2 do it again.. meeting up wit cousin(cant believe haw fast time flies-theyre big!!)^^~ meeting other people.. cooking, eating great food... bla2.... anyways its was awesome!!!

going back 2 university!! this suck!! i got assignments waiting 2 be done!! FYP, Lab report, OMG.. SIFE, DEMI, Programmes.. its cramming my days.. but dats wat i like.. me being busy..oww. n my PROPOSAL!!! lots 2 be mend... just did bout 10% last holiday... silly me.. i know.. play2 jak.. tida mau buat kerja.. anyway i book i neva miss n look forward! FACEBOOK!!<3 neva grow tired of it....

now on my way back 2 KT, im stuck bout 3 hours @ KKIA.. my fl8 got delay cuz of d shitty weather.. aigo!!!!! im sooo tired of waiting !! this airport is cold n hard n lonely.... wuwuwuwuwuwuw!!! get me my DCB quick2!! make it TCB even beter!!!

to make things even interesting, my flight was delayed up to d extend of 5 hours!! another 2 hours on board.. the air is stuffy, n feels suffocating!! bout 8 pm den we went up n away 2 KL...

arrived @ kl, theres another prob.. my last flight 2 tganu went away redy.. figures.. since its about 11.20pm by dat time... owwkey... 'your nex flight would be @ 8.00am 2moro" i got no luggage, no toiletries, no nothing!! omost scream!! i just wanna go back 2 my uni!!! no more plz!!! " u can stay @ PAN PACIFIC 2nie"<< sudenly it didnt sounds so bad.. keh3..... LOL! silly me aint it??

skalinya pegi dat particular hotel mo chek in pon taking bout an hour! sudala jauh jalan kaki(though it was in da same building) kin panas!!(hangin satu badan) sampai2 di bilik, luckily my room was great, bath tub, queen size bed, flat screen tv,, shud i ask 4 mo??? hahahah....

but my mind is not at ease @ all.. wanted 2 go back 2 uni!! like now!!!! dun want dis luxury!! want 2 be in my room up in kayangan @ 5th floor...

da next day, i check out @ 6, grab bfast @ Eraman..skalinya flight delay lg 4 another half an hour!!! panas!!!!! by d end of da day, nsb bek smpai tganu!!!

Another bad day... - FYP presentation

2010-09-05T08:22:00.000-07:00

owkey.. my bad.. im a last minute person... i know... but this is like bad..
i got my FYP presentation yesterday..(one of the reason y i stayed in hostel late..)figures!! it was a disaster!!!

Protien profiling of hydrophobic protien from amebocyte lysate of T.Gigas... dats my proposal... basically its to isolate hydrophobic protien( membranbound) an 2 characterize those bu mr n charge.... its sounds easy 2 understand rite.. iduno y those lecturer asked me bout those un related stuff!!
aisy!!

u c... if my friends got shot.. i cot bombed!!! thats how bad my presentation is... T_T.. lifes un fair!!

holidey is comin 4 me.. raya wanted 2 say hi! but im still depressed.. aigoo!! cheer up lah me!!! ts just a proposal. ok maybe u screw a very important presentation.. what can u do now is just work harder.. theres nothing u can do to change the result of everything taht happened. like moms said.. redha... >_< still my liver is in pain!!!

a very bad day...

2010-09-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

this actually hepen end of last month.. i was miserable! okey hres d story

i had a test dat morning so dat nite i stayed up late, pulling all niter! at the same time im finishing up some personal work... truth to be told, i went out dat nite.. meronggeng... not to say dat im a very carefree person its just dat the work load rely get in2 me n i need sum place n time 2 calm myself up so dat i can continue n fight... i went out bukak posa n return around 1 i guess.. den started my usual fesbuking, updating everything, peeking trough ppls pages.. ah.. so called un related 2 study but very important unusefool stuff! it keeps me awake by the very least... okey(continue)

dat morning after sahur i decided 2 take a very very very short nap(cuz my kepala cannot take it anymo! den i wake up tekejut wen i saw the time! omost 8.30!! my test @ 10. i havent fin d slides!!(got 2 mo ppt if im x mistaken)i pun rush2 pg mandi... toilet occupied!! both!! aiseh.. mmg potong mood! i was frustrated.. so i fesbuk sum mo... later i saw my watch 9 oredi!!! omg!!!! den i go shower...

going 2 fetch my fren down stairs,.. den i realized i forgot ,my phone.. so i go back up again.. mind u my fren's room is in 2nd floor while mine in 5th floor!!! tired2 den go jalan kaki 2 KK fm hostel... it was a very! long walk!!!!

wen i answer d test.. pain liver!! i read that part oredi but i cant recall!!! aiseh men! why la why this test.. howla my dream of getting dekan dis sem... im seing it running away.. n im chasing.. its like da dream is using ferari n im stuck wit mini cooper.. fancy yeah but aint as fast...

after test i was soo sleepy.. i open lappy try 2 finisgh my presentation sides.. after 20 min i guess..(posa kan)i pun hit da sack..(x sdar) i woke up 5.30 oredi... den i think2.... wat did i miss?? OMG i got FYP presentation @ 2.30!!!! i ova slept!!! D. Azna will b furious!! omg2!! T_T what hepen to me!!!!!! wuwuwuwuwuwuw... hate this!!

T_T... its a very bad day.. n it all hepen on 31 august.. a way 2 celebrate independence ey...
sigh....

sekadar renungan.

2010-08-18T19:43:00.001-07:00

Br mnggu ini sy terima berita. sAHABAT SY YG CERIA TERKOCOH2 BALIK KERUMAH MENERIMA PANGGILAN KECEMASAN. perkhabaran yang diterima sgt kurang menyenagkan. Tp, kt harus pasrah..Setiap yang hidup pasti akan mati. Hmm itu realiti kehidupan masa kini. mungkin hari ini sahabat, kakak, adek, abang atau sesiapa sahaja kelihatan ceria, sihat dan bertenaga. Siapa tahu, mungkin esok dia jadi tiada.. Tuhan lebih menyayanginya. Kita sayang dia jugak... Namun ketentuan yang telah ditetapkan Rabbi, dan tiada siapa yang dapat menghalangnya. Jika Allah berkehendakkan hidup, maka hiduplah. Jika Allah mahukan hambanya kembali, maka kembalilah hamba itu ke sisiNya. Seperti mana firmanNya :

“Setiap yang bernyawa akan menemui kematian.”(Al Anbia :35)

“Sesungguhnya mati yang kamu ingin lari daripadanya itu ia akan menemui kamu.” (Al Jum’ah :8)

Sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kepadanya, dipanjatkan doa kesejahteraan moga-moga rohnya diredhai Allah, Yang Maha Kuasa.

my 100th post!! yay!!!

2010-08-13T14:48:00.000-07:00

hahaha... the time had come!! i never thought i wrote this much but hey?! i guess wat? i made it 2 my 100th post!! okey.. there are several things i want to share.... 1stly theres 1 song i just realized i like yesterday

its sixth sense - yang sempurnakanku!
the song is tottaly sweet!! even though im x in luv just yet, i totally luv the song!

here d lyric:

Kawlah bidadari dalam hidupku
Yang selalu hadir di dalam mimpiku
Bunga yang selalu harungi hariku
Anugerah tuhan yang sempurnakanku

Bila kau jauh
Aku selalu rindu
Bila kau ada
Hatikan berbunga

Ku akan selalu menjadi bintangmu
Menerangi gelap dan mimpimu
Aku setia di sini mengusap tangismu
Menerangi sunyi di hatimu

Bila kau jauh
Aku selalu rindu
Bila kau ada
Hatikan berbunga

Ku akan selalu menjadi bintangmu
Menerangi gelap dan mimpimu
Aku setia di sini mengusap tangismu
Menemani sunyi di hatimu

hahaa.. i noe its a bit poyo but hey.. wats not 2 like?? i can be like this at times.... hehehehe :3

second is i just watched valentine's day. i know its sooo last season but i jjust watched it... (late la me i noe...) the only thing i like in the muvies is the actor n actress.. stong i must say. anna hathaway, julia roberts, aston kutcher, emma roberts, taylor lautner(OMG!!) taylor swift, jessica alba n d list goes on... wat more 2 ask!! if only the script is mo dramatic or sum sort... haish..... wat a waste..(*rugi lor!!)

thirdly.. its fasting season.. time 4 more ibadah n 4 sure time 4 watch ur weight food n deeds! its the time of the year again when people will b crazy with food, buying new clothes, purchasing new shoes n handbags... n yes! raya @aidilfitri is coming this way!!! in ramadhan bazzar, scrumtious food n colorful drinks r waiting!! yum3! the deeds in this holy month will be doubled! so everyone lets pray 4 blessing n yes, every deeds counts!!! twice! ^^~

cheers n hepi fasting!

found this on the net n i cant stop laughing!!

2010-08-04T18:19:00.000-07:00

1. A husband and wife were trying to set up a new password for their computer.
Her husband put 'mypenis' and the wife fell on the ground laughing cause it said, "Error. Not long enough." .

2. A girl needs a blood transfusion, so her boyfriend gives her his. Months later they break up, and he wants his blood back. So she hands him a tampon and says she'll make monthly payments.

3. Mom: "What kind of site were you on?"
You: "YouTube, Facebook, nothing unusual."
Mom: "Then why did you close it so quickly when I walked in?"
You: "Because I can."

4. A blonde txted me and asked "what does *IDK* mean" and i txt back "i don't know" then she wrote .. "Gosh! nobody knows!"

5. Boy friend: "Who's the guy that hurt you?? im gonna kill him!"
Girl friend: "Well u might as well commit suicide"...

6. MOM: if all your friends jumped off a cliff would you jump too?

KID: mom, my friends arent idiots.

7. "Mom...I'm bored"
"Ok, if you're so bored why don't u clean this..."
"Never mind I found something to do."

8. "EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP!" *answers phone* "Hi Mommy :)"

9. Mom, im 16 now. Can I have a Bra? ...No, Justin.

10. A man asked a genie to make him a billion times smarter than any man on earth, so the genie turned him into a woman.

p/s no 10 is my fav!!!

bz2.. padahal bukan wat apa pn...

2010-07-26T09:24:00.000-07:00

to tell u d truth, i didnt feel dat d tyme flies dat fast at incredible rate... im in my third yer oredi... hehehe.. hepi seniors r graduating, me?? nex yer...Insya Allah... wen i c d yelllow scarf, im jelous like hell! how i wish i hv those 2!! im workin my ass off year after year(ofkos last minute, but i did work!) still hasnt get even a glimpse of dat particular scarf...haish!! howla imma make my parents hepi if like this?? aish!its been a lot that happened.. these are among the busiest week ive had ever..

1. SIFE UMT in SMNE 2010

little that i know that wed b dissapointed, not going 2 make it tru d final, hey, watever happened, happens.. hell yeah.. after that long hours of practicing, performing presenting.. weve kicked ass in last SMNE.. c'mon.. hw many of us even think about a lil nobody like UMT come 2 d final n give a good fight! hehehe...im proud of what we did! fellow sifers, be proud! weve done our best but luck wasnt by our side... hm.. congratulation UiTM!! ive watched ur video n i say i love the ming zha project! hey speaking honestly.. ive learnt a lot fm u guys.. i relly mean a lot! 2 SIfE UMS N UTP, dun wury! well come back 4 more of these xcitement l8r! continue changing peoples life!! in SIFE UMT we believe in heling community, we heal ouur self! great job everybody! arul, adnan, raihah, aizee, eija, ita, ecah, fuzah, ustaz, ustazah, mdm azza, dr noraini, zupa, ilham , rio, ain, apih,abg anas, yudha,diana, farah, n all fellow sifers! thnk u! n weve done our best!! u guys r d winner in ma heart!!

2. DEBAT ALAM SEKITAR (DAS)
hey UMT os being d host again!! pity 2 noe that we hadnt had enough man pwr on our side! cmon just finshd wit SMNE i rushed 2 this pulak.. bapak sgt byk gla kerja mas 2.. i wuz like OMG.. melayang2 kesana kemari.. tambahan kesihatan x mengizinkan.. masa 2 demam panak yg truk sore throat pn teruk.. skipping class, postphoning presentation.. haisy.. TAHNIAH kepada DEMI UMT! berjaya jugak kt menganjurkan pertandingan debat yg geren ini! heheheeh..jgn lupa as i said MINTAK BLAZER! huhu.. helmy, din, riz, kahalil, ada, wawa, alia,amar, fifi, liza, hajar, hanim, farouk,azwan, hari, syima, wan, aupa, acap, hanita, siva, ravisya, durga, purnima,jannah! truskan usaha anda! sya sgt syg korng sume< motip nih... 2 bi debaters yg telah menjayakan kita pnya open debate, "PAUL SHULD BE OOOKED??" tahniah sume.. biarpun agak rusted at least u guys x stubmle in n out... hehehehehe....

3. GCB @ McD
ari 2 bosan2 bukak fb n 'pap'!tiba2 sumting caught my eye.. yes!!! its the advertisment column!! daku tros berpaling ke arah itu.. GCB a new biting xperience.. lantas daku bergolek2 di atas katil membayangkan nak makan DCB.. 10 menet pas 2 fuzah call! " wani jom McD nan aupa.." i punya la hepi br berangan da dpt! yesh!!!! GCB here i come.. rasanya boley than tp p[refer DCB better!! chezze yg melt vs sour cream pepper.. sah2 ak pilih chezzze!!! muax2 2 fuzah n aupa sbb sentesa tawu pae yg mermain di hati ku.. kekekekeke....

4. Ieja's bday party celebration

hahaha.. kesian ieja di prank kitorng... di tngaalkn di kedai makn sorng2 sejam lamanya. kakakak... sgt lawat tp beasala kan.. ieja mntak ampun dr hujung rmbut smpi kuku jari kaki.. sifers u guys r a blast!!

5. LI report
report ni menyebabkan ak besengakang mata selama 2 malam berturut2. alhamsulillah segalanya dapat disiapkan... sakit mata woo.. org len buat sebulan ak wat 2 hari! amek ko! nsb bek okey kalo tak, nangis air mata darah pn blom tentu siap.. ahahaha

itula antara cita yg mnyebabkan daku bz mcm nak mampos ini... haisy!!! hahahaha.. mungkin daku perlu lebey bertenaga.. tepaksa minom kaip fatimah la ni kot... muhahaahahah.. kepada suma senior yg telah bergraduat TAHNIAH!!! abg wan, kak huda, kak faz, jijah, james, manu, pasha, aizat!! congratz u guys!! wawawa.. dapat keje karang blanja makan plz!! hahahahaha....
sekarang tibalha masa yg ditunggu2 sebelum byk asaimen disoh wat ak nak wat asaimen ke lkelantan dulu.. jom kwn2 kt meronggeng!!

Life wiTh SIFE

2010-07-06T15:35:00.000-07:00

i havent got much of a time 2 tell wats happening but keeping this short, heres wat hepen.. weve done projects n all n its d time 4 d PRESENTATION.. it kills me 2 noe dat our presentation is not yet cmpleted n i havent learned my script well.. neva the less.. i dun wat 2 bring other ppl down bcuz of me, so i need 2 be here till the end of my wit...aiyayaya... this isnt an easy task..->>> headache<<-

Without you..

2010-06-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

perasaan skrg..

MANDI-MANDA

2010-05-28T17:17:00.000-07:00

hipokritnya aku.. kuar 1st tyme, kena air pun ak x mo.. skali turun 2nd tyme, jgn ckp air, aku siap menyelam trus.. dtg2 trus mandi plak 2.. hahahaha.. sgt lucu!! mandi 1st tyme 2 byk halangan.. ramai pulak 2 kaum adam.. segan la pulak.. suala org ak minat pun ada skali.. kontrol la beb... 2nd tyme 2 pegi ngan staff so ok kot.. sbb dorng suma sua kawin .. adala sorng tp dat one mmg impossible 2 get.. hahaha. sgt lucu kan.... yalordr k terhangat di pasaran.
ada rupa, ada harta, tinggi plak 2.. budi pn baek... humor kepala gila sama mcm kamiorng.. hahahaa.. mmg terhangat n rebutan lah... ah, cni juga kenal ramai member2 baru.. wani skuter, syaiful, ramzy, ebak(ehem), en. azrul(nak ais kacang free satu!, eiji. syah.. aisy..ramai pula kalo nak sebut satu2... aisy... hahaha.. tp mmg best n sonok... hoyeh2....

AktiViti Li

2010-05-07T17:14:00.000-07:00

LI kali ni boley tahan ar bestnya... ktorng terasa sgt d blessed masa li ni.. ada ramai org yg sporting2.. pas 2 da pekerja yg agak chomel(hehehehe) n cute... mmg cuci mata la... hehehe.... keja d ladang lembu kami buat byk benda... 1st kami pg unit agromnomi wat lanskap... trus kerja buruh tarik pagar ni.. ak nda sngka ak bleh buat tp mmg ak bleh buat pun.. hehehe.. 2nd week kami d ladang lembu.. kandang jak sbnrnya... lawat jak ladang 2... cuci kandang, kasi makan, rawatan lembu sakit... isk.. mmg takut kerja ni.. x sesuai pompuan buat.. ganas2 itu lembu.. baka luar negara kan.. susa owh....suda la besar, tinggi n kuat lagi.. buli melayang nyawa owh kalo kn tandang @ sondol.. aiyooo.... kami cillect semen dia... taw ka apa 2 semen? air mani bha.. bikin geli?? itu la yg kami buat seminggu.. kasi ghairah lembu, pastu curi air man.. tp lembu cni mcm homo suda.. sbb yg dia naik kalo dia heat 2 lembu jantan..(teda betina -nnti bunting 2 kena rogol secara paksa kalo kami lmbat collect semen)hahaha.. kami lum blajar lg proses semen. nnti mnggu ke 4 br la.. eh mnggu ni la 2.. well mnggu depan.. yg pnting nnti masa abis mnggu ni la.. hehehe..tus last week(dis week la 2) kami d kandang kambing pula.. best ni... rutin sama.. kasi bersih kandang, kasi makan, tp best sbb kasi bagi susu sama anak kambing, belai2... johnny, tommy bobby, kakak, adik- kakak wani misses u!! perah susu kambing(panas2 ni), potong kuku kambing collect semen kambing pun kami buat.. heheh.... post mortem kambing mati pun kami buat... gla la.. basunya.. tuhan jak yg tawu.. hehehe.. sabar jak kami!!
d kandang kambing 2 ada sekor kambing yg d lepas bebas.. namanya c buncit sbb dia mmg buncit!! kerja dia makan jak ni! isk2... haha.. lucu ni dia.... kih3...dia jinak kami slalu p syg2 dia.. ak rasa dia lupa suda yg dia 2 kambing sbb slalu kawan sama manusia jak..tp tebarus tul ni.. suma dia telan glove pun di makannya.. huhu... turuk tul ni... hihuihhi... pas 2 dia suka lari2 so kami pn men kejar2 la ngan dia slalu.. hehehehe... siok ni.... em.. pas ni msti rindu kandang sbb mo stat kerja d lab yg bosan 2 sua kan.. hehehe... ah~ 1 mo thing yg best cni kami ddk ruma sendiri so sukati kami jak mo buat apa d ruma 2.. hihihiu.. ski!!!\(^0^)/
ADA PLAN NI KAMI MNGGU NI SBB CUTI LAMA KAN.. 3HAri bha cuti... mo pg Lata Meraung ni!! hehe.. bermandi manda, bbq, n mcm2 lagi!
ak sua buat puding.
ain su perap ayam.. jadi la ni!! hehehe....

aku azira ain dan LI

2010-04-19T19:51:00.000-07:00

hari ni ak stat LI(sptutnya semalam tapi br stat ari ni- semalam serah kunci jak..)
semalam membersihkan rumah mcm org gila... katanya br tinggalkan semalam tapi da macam tnggal bertahun2.. isk2... tensi la pulak... setelah berpenat lelah setengah hari membasuh rumah (bagus! akhirnya siap) aku trus tido.. penat!! x tahan! arini bgn awal dgn debaran mo punch card.. skali tgk kad kami blum buat lagi...(wuwuwuwu) sedih..... tp xpa.. kami dibagi taklimat.. wuuuuyoooo kena masuk kandang 3 minggu, kerja lab lagi... wawawa.. cabaran.. tp x pa itu yg kami suka... hehehehehe....

crita pasal mo dtg cni nasib kami baik ada hamba allah yg membantu di waktu kesusahan.. kak ida, en. sudin& anak2nya n plg penting syikin(tqvm!!)dorngla yg tlg antakan pegi tempatni.. huhuhu.. nasib baik sebab tempatni sgt jauh dr jerantut bout 30 min kot nek keta... dah la bagitompang dkt jengka 14 1 malam..tqvm!! muax!

hari kami sampai tekanan! sebab teda dapur gas!omg!! mau dapur gas la!!! penting 2! mesti keluar tp mcm mn?? mungkin boleh mntak tlg supervisor(hik3)hahahaha! ^^~
ah~ tong gak dah digolekkan ke dalam rumah.. maksudnya sua buli masakla!!... heheheh...

packing n LI

2010-04-17T01:26:00.000-07:00

currently packing 4 2moro LI
furnished this l8r..

now im furnishing... oh my god! can you belive it? 3 box 4 books n papers
2 box for other things(iron, heater etc..)
1 box for shoes
1 box for stationary and files
2 more box tupperware and glass and cup
1 bag of soft toys
1 bag of comforter n pillow
1 bag of clothings
1 luggage 4 li
1 bag(a big one) for shoes n all

i cant believe my self.. this is even more than last year!!!
idk where on earth these stuff come from! goodness gracious!
i need 2 watch out my spending oso!! dang!

im letting you go..

2010-04-06T17:03:00.000-07:00

good bye brother
good bye for good
i free you today
assume you understood

dear brother,
i luv u for life
but this had happened
and what we did is not wise

i see it coming
but i didnt care
cuz i luv u brother
for love all i have to share

we laugh brother
you love to tease
shed tears together
but now it had ceased

were stuck in different border
for pur principal divide
we avoid each other
blaming on things we dont know which one is right

silence is your savior
telling is my cure
we can never be together
for there might be war

ill cherish d memories
d time we spend
time we took 2 disscuss
n time we make amend

forgive me brother for pulling you in
into a situation i dont think youll understand
now im pulling you out never be within
for the sake of our relation
a gift for you from a good friend

im letting you go now brother
for every time im with you i will cry
you are cruel to me brother
but i still love you and that i cant deny

family forgive and forget
so that i will try
true, im disappointed dear
put tons of affection to you brother
but it all ends as i cry
thus now the tears has to end

im crying dear brother
im hurting inside
you were there but you just dont care
tell me brother
why should i left you a spare
when you are not there
not even stare

you shine so bright brother
it sting me in the eye
now my sight are blurry
n i cant see clearly
my hope for you brother
may u be happy and smile brightly
for u brother, that ill pray

look to ones heart brother
for there youll find a lot
things you cant see dear
things that must be told

bye bye brother,
im serious this time
it feels so foul
like im doing crime
but i have no choice brother
for the greater good of everyone
for this is my chance to say good bye

this heart is broken
it need to be fixed
require special attention
require special need

god bye brother i release you free,
for this family i must stay
may you find your happiness
for it did not lie with me

if you forget me i will not be mad
dont worry brother
i always have your back
so please dun be sad
dont even hesitate

this is reckless brother
but this is the road i choose
i cant hold on to you dear
for holding bring me despair..

the time has come for this to end
gud bye to you my brother
now with no line intact
were no longer family
from now on were just friends..

thank you for everything brother
though you are no longer family
youre still my friend

Hepi besday 2 both of my ruma8s!!!

2010-03-28T16:48:00.000-07:00

i luv u guys so we hv a lil celebration..
haha
2 kak anes n anis, hepi besday
god bless
it a a long journey to get da cake in the first place
talk bout long distance walking fm shahbandar 2 secret recipe(gla kan?))\
but 4 u dearest, neva mind.. luckily got kak khalisah!!
wuwuwuw
tqvm!!
haha
walking tru so many blocks, passed tru astaka n kiliney, den the furniture blocks, dang! its a hell of a long walk!
den on da way back its raining(bagus! !!)great! n we run tru d rain like crazy! hahaha.. neva the less its a good experience! hehehe....
tqvm 2 all!!
4 d besday gurls
>kak anes
- heppi VIVA-ing
- study2 final!!
- gudlak on ur coming master ^^~
-i luv u
- jgn sengal lagi!!
-sila jd matang!

>anis nadilla
-bangon tdor!!
-kem slm cikgu(ckp rum8 plg comel kem slm- tnye ade kwn ensem x?)
-smoga pnjang umo murah rezki
- tgk2 taun dpan pn kte rum8.. kekekeke.....
- i luv u!!
- gud lak final!!!

cheers~ waney!!

im complicated

2010-03-23T17:50:00.001-07:00

i tell lies
i noe
i do it most of d time

hypocrite?
mayb thats me
reality should be damn

here d truth im complicated

when i said left me alone
i want ppl 2 give me sum space but check on me plz i may do sumtin stup*d
when i say nothingla
i want 2 say but i hesitate... taking everything 2 consideration
when i say let it be
i reeeeeellllly mean it... dun paster me..
wen i dun look u in d eye
sumthing is sooo wrong
whem im x smiling
make me smile again its so not me 2 be sour
when i said im gonna be ok
i may not, depending on d situation
usually ill be
wen i say i cry
means dat my pillows r wet my eyes r puffy n my lids hurts..
when i said its ok
it reely dont!
wen i say im hurt
i reeeely am!
wen i said i miss u
i reely do
wen i said i hate u
i want u to console me
wen i said no biggie
it is big!!
wen my face is not showing its glow
sumtin must hapen 2 me
wen im out laughing n cming back crying
mens dat i tried so hard 2 satisfy everyone
i cant take the lies anymo
wen i say 4get it
i want 2 4get it but it keep poping up
wat shud i do?

im complicated
im twisted
im wrecked

letih

2010-03-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

LETIH
hanya itu dapat ku ucap. haha.. this part of me went out often these days.. days wen were left 4goten n alone.. mayB its the cruel reality, mayB its just me. icant say. what ever it is it impacted my life real big. i cant feeel the same way before. i want to be the WANI im used 2 b. d hepi, prob free, things could b fixed, confident WANI. . dat WANI i like. now im sloppy, depressed, and all the bad things that can b said. y?? im asking myself the same question. some ppl are just 2 thick... i dunt thik dat a snapshooter PG-17 can pass trough. nor the m16..... hmm.. hw could i say this, they cant realize their own action. then start blamming other ppl. GOD, i rely need a getaway(which i cant get now since i missed it-by sumone) i want 2 talk, i dun hv d chance. my heart ache. it sting.. im hurt my eyes hurt, my vision stared 2 blurr... my tears flooding my lids... i blinked, hope ill go away.. but it didnt. rarely i want 2 do this but some how 4 d time it occurs like its a routine in my life. to as bad as dat.. what did anyone done to me? part fm forgetting?
i dont know..
pretending im not there when iam. passed by saying nothing, seeing nothing,smiling 4 nothing.accused bad. work bad. scolded bad.
im trying reely hard 2 get a grasp of my self now.. im afraid i cant. i must do this. i noe. but i dont noe how...
im almost lost. caught by insecure and dark loneliness. sum said its just a thing 4 2nd yer. ill pass.. but it been long oredi.. when will it pass?
my eyes sting now.. it hadnt stop 4 a while. my rum8s r getting edgy... wut can i do? crying every nite 4 d past 2-3 week ago had beed a part of me.. my eyes, im soory 4 makin u work ova time..
my heart is broken.. need 2 be mend
need 2 be heal
fren in need is fren indeed
but...
what gives, who cares..
there2 eye... quit it mow..
head says stop, heart says pour!
like rain in d storm
like the broken pipe at sideways
like shower without the handle
it cant b stop.

im emo i noe...
dats y there r 2 sides of WANI. this side should be repressive. not shown.. but now im displaying it like a model on runway. dats how bad iam.
idun think(or mayB cuz i cant)i last this long
they say time heals
n im waiting...

my heart, i noe u suffer d most. i noe wat ur feelin. i noe ur sufferings n torment. i understand ur need. but its impossible 2 gain. sumtime momments just never come back no matter how hard u wish 4 it.. my aching heart desire euthanasia, let it die in peace.. mayB a heartless person will make me a better one since heart matter is hard 2 tell, hard 2 say hard 2 guess..
end this long parody of sadness...

hal aku kesah..(hati aku kan....)(atau mungkin mengarut semata-mata)

2010-03-20T05:36:00.001-07:00

cerita 1: dulu aku tak kenal cadbury, bila kenal aku suka. sweet gila... aku suka cadbury lbh dr aku suka vochelle. tp tanpa vochelle aku bukan sapa2. itu kisah dlu.. aku masih setia pada vochelle. walau apa pn terjadi. aku tetap sokong vochelle. dalam vochelle ada juga kacang yg aku x suka.. aku ska hazelnut, cashew, roast almond, len2 mcm fruit n nuts aku kureng byk.... mungkin sebab aku lebih suka milk choclate.. aku mc setia dgn vochelle biarpun aku suka cadbury... tp rupa2nya cadbury boleh bagi caries yg lagi teruk dr vochelle. mungkin sebab fruit dia melekat kat gigi tanak hilang walau diberus..aku sakit.... mungkin aku tamak mahu vochelle n cadbury.. tapi aku suka keduanya... tensi..... mungkin aku better off sticking wit vochelle, poket pn x kering mo beli smpai 2 kan...

cerita 2: aku sangat suka nokia.. kalau ada papa hal mesti aku guna nokia aku.. tiba2 nokia aku buat hal ngan aku.. mo baiki tp nnti x ori sudah... tp dia mc berfungsi, cuma tidak sebest dlu.... tp aku syg nokia wlupn dia saja x mo aku guna.... biarpun dia buang tebiat kdg2, aku ttp syg nokia.. nokia aku kin panas pn aku ttp syg nokia... bukan aku x boleh guna sonyE baru aku tp.. aku mc syg ngan nokia

cerita 3: aku suka kokokrunch duo, tp bru aku tau kokokrunch dua x sesedap kokokrunch biasa. mungkin taste aku len. mungkin itu kebenaran. tapi entah, lepas beberapa kali try kokokrunch duo aku rasa rasa dia overpower yg lagi satu(putih overpwr hitam).. x sync.... mungkin aku perlu stick nyan kokokrunch dua.(slama aku mkn trix ok jak.. lg byk kale dlm trix 2..)

cerita 4: dulu aku suka baju byk2... tp bila lama2 baju byk ni susah mo basuh.. lagi2 kalo baju rurun kale effek satu lagi.... haish.. tp aku syg suma baju2 aku walau ada bj dengki ngan baju satu lagi.. aku harap boleh pakai byk2 mcm dlu...

cerita 5: aku rindu bambangan n sambal belacan... mungkin sini ada budu, bambangan tetap no 1!! pilihan hati.. ah aku rindu kicap cap ayam juga wlupn cni ada kicap jalin!!

*cerita hanya rekaan semata-mata, menghibur hati lara..

aku sakit lagi..

2010-03-10T19:36:00.001-08:00

aku tahu, agak tidak matang untuk meluahkan perasaaan dalam blog tapi itu antara reason utama knp aku menulis blog pd walnya. kpd pembaca. maaf post akhir2 ini sangat tidak intelektual tp ah... persetankan itu semua. semalam aku ada sesi heart2 heart yg aku kira effectif sedikit berbading dlu2.. suasana terkawal, aku senang, n selesa.. dia? ntah, tp aku kira dia pn sama. cuma resah sedikitla... tp tolak ke tepi. mungkin suma salah aku. aku tak tahu. mungkin hanya perasaan semata. tapi... aku tak bohong... suma ak ckp benda betol..aku salah ka biala ckap benda betul? bila pernyataan aku calit cat di muka mereka atas apa yg mereka buat salah aku ka?? itu interpretasi org len. fine. salah aku.. aku terima. tp masa 2 aku buntu.. aku perlu luahkan segalanya. masa 2 hanya ada 2 kemungkinan. aku jd nanar atau buka pekung di dada... aku pilih jalan mudah.. aku tak mahu jd nanar .. aku tak mahu jd gila... aku buka pekung didada... maaf.. itu jak yg ak boleh ckp. sebab hidup aku perlu diteruskan. aku tak mahu rasa terbeban. kepada sesiapa yg terkesan. maaf. masa 2 aku ckp trus terang ini hanya luahan perasaa. mereka sahabat, mereka rakan. aku tidak mampu untuk berdepan dgn seorng sahabat n st8 2 d face ckp ' ur ignorance make me b this way, this bad, this tired'.... were aldults. adults didnt like 2 take orders. cuz adults r suppose 2 b sensitive enough 2 understand, to observe, to interprete. u should understand. i didnt hv enough hand, ask wat can u do? dun wait 4 me 2 gv orders. dun hope.. do stare blankly. u noe wat 2 do.. kemas kk, rubbish, arangement of finals, keep ur mentees 2 watch d final, keeping in good shape. wen i c u guys dat tired, i cant bear myself 2 do wat i say u think i should. u hv ur own restriction. say, im hard 2 please, i can be a real *****, but still i noe im nice. then, lemme ask u one thing, do u or do u not hv eyes, ears , sense, n guilt c-ing me in dat pathetic condition while im putting my fake face on 2 please everyone... ?nah~ mayB u dot, mayB u hv... wat u do? nothing... im not mad anymo bcuz of dat, im cool now. cuz i had let it all go at dat time.. which i need 2... and u said im wrong? wrong 2 express my feeling, wrong 2 express d truth.. did i lie? obviously no! n u actually mad for the fact that i tell everyone d truth. because it makes u look bad? because they now know what happen exactly? truth is bitter but face it, its a fact! tell me where did i do wrong? those r my friends, the only ones i have since i cant talk 2 nobody else.. i have no one here remember? i have my own reason why i feel it is best to talk to them.. n who are you to judge me? i do the work! so like my heart i can talk! ah~ i will surely xplain mo l8r but now.. i need 2 go~

takdir. ketidakadilan. penat. kecehewa. sakit hati

2010-03-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

mungkin sudah takdir. tak dapat balik beraya, tak dapat blik tgk kubur matua. org ckp hidup macam pantai. ombak tak tentu pasang surutnya. sentiasa berubah.tapi, bila badai melanda, semua jadi terumbang ambing. aku cuba paut pada sesuatu, aku tak tahu bila tp rupaya dia makan diri aku. aku bukanlah orang yg mengunakan org len utk kesenangan sendiri. aku tak suka berjanji kalau sukar untuk aku tepati. mungkin salah aku sebab aku yg alpa dalam kesibukkan diri. yalah. mungkin orang tak nampak kan.. tp itulah lumrah kejadian sebenar. tatak semua perkara yang dirancang itu jadi. tak semua perkara itu pasti. tapi aku kecewa, bila ada mereka yg aku rasa patut di sula. sakit hati bila ketidakadilan berlaku. rasanya semua falls atas aku. mcm aku sorng sj yg wujud dan boleh melakukan semuanya. tp aku pasrah, suara ku bukan seperti mereka, mungkin pada mereka aku tak perlu utk dihormati, takperlu didengari tak perlu diikuti.aku pasrah. biarlah apa pn terjadi aku tetap sayangkan mereka mcm famili sendiri. yalah.. aku dah jauh sekarang.. i hv nobody.. merkalah hidup aku. sekali, dua, tiga dan seterusnya... sakit lagi.. mungkin aku yang terlalu sensitif, mungkin aku yang terlalu baik. mungkin topeng perlu dialihkan sekarang. sebelum keadaan parah. tp 4 real, aku pasrah. dalam kesibukkan kerja yang tak sudah, pasti ada kecelaruan dan ketidakpuasan hati. aku masih begini. ingat buat cool tp sampai bila... kerja last minit dah jd satu ikon wajib. kesannya aku terima saban hari. sibuk, sakit hati dan tak tahu nak buat apa..mungkin orng lain tgk aku mcm robot, takrasa apa2. lapar makan,penat tidur. tapi mereka lupa. aku manusia biasa. punya hati dan perasaan. kadangkala aku butuh pertolongan, tapi senyap. tangunggjawab? aku cuba jalankan sebaiknya. tp bila kita cuba membantu yg lain, kesempatan diambil lagi, aku tersepit. sedih kecewa. bila itu kerja bersama tp... aku rasa tak payah ckp pn org tahu. aku tak terasa nak menconteng ke muka siapa2. cukuplah aku yg rasa dia pn terasa. kalau kebal jugak, aku tak tahu nak kata apa.. aku dah kurang tidur kebelakangan ini. bukan insomnia.. tak.. cuma kerja yg berlambak tak bagi aku tidor... di kala org len diulit mimpi dan bergembira sebab cuti aku mcm org gila dgn droopy eye wat keja. aku tgk muka aku kat cermin. aku ka 2?? mungkin aku perlu tidur. aku tidur, nightmare! aku tak mampu...mesti siap juga. tapi aku dah nak termuntah2... bila berlaku sesuatu dan kita selamat, itu tandanya kita diberi peluang kedua, mungkin tuhan nak bagi the taste of hell.. biar nnti taubat masuk syurga. 2 readers, mngking korng x paham apa yg ak tulis, tp ni sekadar luahan perasaan. kalau tak luah ak takut benanah parah... aku tak tahu sejak bila aku terer mengarang. tp aku perlu! biar terluah semua yang terbuku. buku novel, ensyklopedia, buku atkins, campbell biar kuar suma.. kerja sama, bantu membantu,tanggung jawab, sakit hati, berterus terang.. tapi tida jalan penyelasaian. aku jahat sebab post note nih tp.. aku perlu puas.. sekarang aku rasa sakit macam senggugut. kejap ada, kejap tiada. bila sakit, rasa tercabut uterus.. mcm 2 lah.. takdir jugak bila ada perkara perlu ditnggalkan sebab kekanggan perkara len. em.. mungkin aku perlu bersabar... tapi sabar aku dah di tahap tertinggi. mungkin aku akan jd seperti gunung berapi di Hawaii.. atau akan mengalami gegaran otak mcm Haiti.. entahla...

Al-Fatihah..

2010-02-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

baru pagini ak postkn satu post..
ptg ni ak post lagi satu...
sedih, kecewa, rasa nak marah~
tu ja yg ak mampu mo ckp..
pukul 4.03 td ak kol adek
adek nangis2 jawab talipon
" kak, biru sua kaki matua. mamy blang mo deka sua 2"
" sabar jak lah dek, yassin jak"
trus ak nangis..
jam 5.12 adek talipon lagi.. aku takut mo angkat..
tp ak angkat jg
" kalong....."
"bah innaillhinnaillahirajiun"
aku wat cool.. padahal airmata mcm air terjun...
adik sobbing di line sebelah
aku trus tutup phone..
ak kecewa..
nda sempat tgk arwah sblum jd gni,,,
ni ak jauh d perantauan.. nda taw mo wat apa
ak mo balik..
tp keadaan mengekang...
semoga rohnya dirahmati...

Al-Fatihah..

yesterday once more

2010-02-15T18:19:00.000-08:00

rasa mcm br smalam matua(nenek) ckp ngan along
"long, blajar baik2, jau 2 d tempat orang.."
"ya matua.. nnti pndai2la along tu.."
" rajin-rajin balik, nnti mamatua rindu"
ak senyum jak..
realitinya, cuti sem lalu ak x balik, cuti 2 bulan pn ak x balik, cuti raya cina pn ak nda balik.. lama sua ak nda balik...
ada jg matua tanya.. tp mamy ckp along bz tu d uni dia.. betulkah aku lebihkan kerja uni dari family
aku nda taw..
ak sgt sedih!!
smpai nda taw mo buat apa..
perlukah ak balik...
tapi ak suda terikat di sini..
huhuhu
mcmnni???
mamy ckp nda payahla balik.. tp rasa besalah nnti..
takut menyesal kalo nda jumpa matua..
takut2 ni la last time....
aku buntu....
kawan vs family
bukannya nda mo balik
bukkannya nda boleh balik..
tp hati ak ckp balik otak ak ckp jangan!
smalam adik talifon
" kalung, ko bx ka?"
"nda, men fb jak ni. napa?"
" ko kc kirim yasin dr sana, nazak sua mamatua ni"
trus ak tutup laptop buka yassin...
al-fatihah, semoga ringan bebannya...
matua,
diala antara yg ak syg..
Ya Allah,
mcm br semalam ko cabut nyawa bapatua
sedihnya pn masih ada.. satu ruang kosong yang kosong....
skrg Kau mo amik lagi satu kah?
dia blum lg tgk aku grad
dia blang tgk gmbar pn jadi
tp ak da setaun lg mo grad ni... ko sempatkanlah Ya Allah...
Kazen2, SedAra2 ku suma suda bekumpul di kampung... Ak nda mau nnti nex time kami kumpul, mo kumpul d kubur....
matua,
kalo dia teda, sepa mo ciup pipi alk stp kali ak blik kg.
sepa lg org 1st ak mo cri kalo trn fl8
sepa mo ajar ak ikat lamban
sepa mo kasi masak udang cili padi fav aku?
sepa mo kasi kwn ak tdur, belai2 rambut aku??
org ckp you wont know the value till u lost it
tp ak taw value yg aku bakal hilang...
Ya Allah berilah ak kekuatan...
Berilah dia Kekuatan..
Kalau sudah takdir-Mu akan Kau ambil dia kembali
Maka redhakanlah hatiku...
Bukan ak nda kasi rela.. tp ak mc x bersedia..
hati, tabahlah....

valentine n gong xi fa chai!

2010-02-13T16:42:00.000-08:00

love is in the air.. never the less hepi valentine oso!!

a REAL boyfriend!

2010-02-05T04:18:00.000-08:00

When She walks away from you mad - [Follow her]
When She stare's at your lips - [Kiss her]
When She pushes you or hit's you - [Grab her and don’t let go]
When she start's cursing at you - [Kiss her and tell her you love her]
When she's quiet - [Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you - [Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [Pull her back]
When you see her at her worst - [Tell her she's beautiful]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word]
When you see her walking - [Sneak up and hug her waist from behind]
When she's scared - [Protect her]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder - [Tilt her head up and kiss her]
When she steal's your favorite hat - [Let her keep it and sleep with it for a
night]
When she tease's you - [Tease her back and make her laugh]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [reassure her that everything is okay]
When she looks at you with doubt - [Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she like's you - [she really does more than you could
understand]
When she grab's at your hands - [Hold her's and play with her fingers]
When she bump's into you - [bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tells you a secret - [keep it safe and untold]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [don’t look away until she does]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU - [SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break her heart - [the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she says its over - [she STILL wants you to be hers]
When she repost this bulletin - [she wants you to read it]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
- DON'T let her have the last word
- NEVER call her hot! Pretty and beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- WHen she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her
- When she says she's sorry, she truly means it
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its
stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
&& When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I
kicking today baby?"
If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will:
Call you
Kiss you
Love you
Text you

DebatE workshop PNC 2010

2010-02-04T21:30:00.000-08:00

congratulation 4 those who come to the workshop n thnx 4 ur cooperation!!! special thanx 4 wan ahmad azimi 4 d luvly briefing n lecture!! congratulation 2 bm debaters 4 completing their workshop oso(sp tnx 2 kak amni n d cute baby, n kak kama!!) never the less, to all the co mitee member!! gud job guys!!

mnggu yg sgt bz..

2010-01-12T18:32:00.000-08:00

mngu ni, ak mcm x trurus sket. Sgt bz. Ak ade 3 test, 1 kuiz, 1 tutorial, byk latihan, 3 proposal, 2 mini projek, lakonan, urusan li, sife cnferens, pnc, urusan kehakiman, surat jmputan, modul debat, n design baju pnc.
Rasa tecabut nyawa. Kalo bleh ak mo wat belahan dedua mcm ameba. Byk sikit bnda setel.. Tp ak ada sorg jak.. Trus ak wuwuwu sorg. Sgt stress! Tp x pa. Ak mc bertahan.

kehendakNya..

2010-01-10T05:39:00.000-08:00

pagi tadi ak bgn lambat.. sbb kelas stat kol 9.. (slalu kul 8- sem ni suma klas awal, sem lalu, pg awal pn pkl 10)jam 8.40 azira dtg..
"wani, ko nadk mo pg lab kah ni??"
'ah?? ala lab kici bukan suma org buli msk skali..'
"ah, bah, ak jln dlu ah~ c ain tnggu sda"
'mbha'
trus ak x sdp ati.. pgla kol Lyn.. mlgnya x diangkat. kol Tee pla.. bila dia ckp kelas tukar lab len aku pn cepat2 siap... rentas jalan Biawak ngan pantas(mcm super sonic!!) x mekap pn arini(aiseh!!)
sampai2 d lab kelas mmg suda mula..

"ayak!!"dlm ati
aku pn msk slo2.. nsb x kedapatan..
trus pgla wat media...
dlm wat2 2 ak tnya bdk2 grup ak
"kt wat ms tmbh ngan BAP kan?"
" a'ah"
lepas kira2 mol,(sbb nila ak plg mls kalo kimia- tp menyesal nda blajar btul2 dlu..)kami pn mulakan tugas..
malang lagi... sbb tgh2 jalan ak pnya mixture sol salah masuk bhn.. tepaksa wat blik... pnya penat....
lepas 2 ak tepaksa xten masa lan 40 min(cover masa wat blik).. wuwuw.. mo dkt 4 jam dlm lab.....
wlaupn ak sedih, aku tabah2 jew..
ah~ masa ak tgh wat blik ,media 2 tb 2 kwn2 ak bising2
"fuzah hilang laptop!!"
aku pn tekejut. tnggal media jap crik fuzah, dia tengah sobbing dkt talipon... tgk aku mkin kuat dia nggis(muka org jahat kot aku..)
"wani"(takziah fuzah)
'saba fuzah, jom wat report kat hepa'
"jap lg. tnggu nak g ngan Aini"
ngan pantas ak pn kol member2 yg len...(suruh tlg tgk2 kalo ade nak jmpe wlaupn harapan 2 sgt tipis..)-time kaseh kwn2..
petang 2 ak stat blaja test jam 6. mnyesal semalam x blajar siap2... huhu.. ak sumbat sua dlm otak...
dlm kol 4 lbh fuzah dtg ak pn teman dia nak g wat statement kat polis.
sampai kat pntu guard utama, ada kol
"pegi tmpat kejadian"
kami pn pg jalan blakang
pas2 kol lg
"kami da smpai pgar hostel"
da la ms 2 ak da halfway jlan blkng.. tepaksa pth blik...
dlm 400 mtr pgr hostel kol lg..
" ble awk nk smpai ni?? sy tnggu dkt makmal"
ak da binggung terus kol fuza kol aupa
"pa, tlg amik ktorg kat pntu pgr utama ni.."
dlm 5 min aupa atg~ nasib bek sbb pacik polis 2 bwk moto.. aku mn pndai bw!! sudala tnggi.....
pas 2 smpai kat makmal rupa2 ada 2 org polis yg berlainan....
pdnpn ak konpius..(pngajaran: sila berhunbung sesama sendiri utuk mngelakkn kekonpiusan org len!!)
dia amik statement smpai kol 6!! Kick!!TEST!!
ak pn rush2 baca nota...
"ala byk lagi x baca"
pas jwb test ak benggang sbb byk pula yg salah(pgajaran: jgn stadi las minit!)
huhuhu...
napala nasib ak ni...
sampai bilik bukak laptop.. isk.. kes gereja kena bakar pula...
aisk!! hmm kdg2 bnda kecil boleh jd besar...
ntahla....
harap ia berakhir.. jgn biar sejarah berulang kembali... pisang berbuah 2 kali..(kalo pisang real xpa.)huhu
i luv msia

weLcomE 2010

2010-01-01T03:33:00.002-08:00

pejam celik, kt sudah menginjak ke tahun baru...
rasa cepat sgt masa berlalu..
aku sudah berusia 21 tahun(perasan pdhal br 20)
di tahun baru rami org tnya.. pasal my resolution for this particular year sbb last yer pnya x kesampaian..
hm.. i said, even i cant answer that. its not because i dont have one, its because i had many n yes one of it is to get onto the dean list dat im dying to get in!!
hm.. in celebrating the new year, im q8 jealous of my family in which they held their annual new year eve celebration while im..
hey, im a wonderer, so be patient... (sigh.. fate..)
my time will come soon..
AH~ no sad story in the new year!! hey, 1st, want to say hepi new year to every one n god bless.. Amin~
p/s: hope u guys achieve last year resolution..n opkos, dis yer as well
luv2- waney

trimas kawan2...

2009-12-21T08:49:00.000-08:00

hari ini (21.12.09) merupakan hari jd sorng sahabat..
AUFAR!!
hari ni jgk, ak berasa hepi krn ak bbrp perkara best tlah belaku

1.ak knal ngan sorg kwn br..~ mirul
2. ak jmpe ngan crush kwn ak
3. ak kene blanja mkn pizza arini

4. ade org blanja mkn donat big apple!! huray!!!! (tq aixe)
5. kelas elektif setat mnggu dpn jd mnggu ni free!!
6. ak akan jalankn stu projek br (ngedorkn..)
7. sudah buat presentation mengarut kelas histoo yg mngembirakan.. haha.. (tahniah grup din)

ada jg prkara yg mnyakitkan ati n otak berlaku:

1. dlm dilemma pegi kursus atau bersika ria bersama kawan( jahat esah masa ni jg br ko nak offer g meronggeng)
2. ada post kejam di fb aku!!
3. ada assignment 40 markah kena buat... antar mnggu depan
4. mnggu ni akan jd bz sgt2...

hepii befday abg Wan N Aupa!!

2009-12-18T11:00:00.000-08:00

haha.. on 18th dec, we(rad, me n fuzah) decided dat we should throw a suprise bday party 2 abg wan n aupa since its their bday(abg wan's at 19 n aupa on 21) so dat pagi we went out, makan nasik ayam at nasik ayam hainan wen d idea hit me
i told them n dey say y not??
so i stat calling everyone on da family 2 put this 2 gether(i luv da family)
den we went out 2 town 2 get blueberry cake n sum junk food.. haha. den we tricked da bday boys into an audition(tp this one 4 real la..) masa tgh2 audition 2.. tada
hepi befday 2 u!!
n both of em r suprised!!
my plan worked n we had a joilly good time
opkos d audition still jalan afterwards!! haha,,
hepi2!!

ThaNx 4 D bday party!!!

2009-12-18T10:42:00.000-08:00

though my besday is 0n 04 dec, my sife famly had me n ust.rizwadi 4 a not so called surprise bday party!!... haha 1st tyme im celebrating bday party at chancellery.. haha.. jolly good experience. we had pizza n of coz secret recipe cake la... the fun part is its written in jawi.. haha.. thanx a'an, ieja, fuzah, lyn, acap, kak ana, topek, arol, nurul,hamka, esah n all yg menjayakn prgram ni!! i luv u guys!!

picture speaks better than i tell...

2009-12-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

TAg fm Aixe

2009-12-09T03:23:00.000-08:00

1.Adakah anda terasa anda hot?
hell iam.. huhu..

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda
fav pic?? suma dlm laptop gamba fav..
x cukup kapasiti blogni mo tampung..

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
sebab i look gojes in all of it...

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
3 hr lalu x silap.. makan domino pizza d UM. makanan dia bg x bes.. mau2 sendiri keluar beli.. kalo nda kebulur...

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
hate(i really dont like u) plain white tees> aku tgh bengang ni...

6. Apa yang sedang anda buat selain daripada selesaikan tag ini?
melayan fb!!

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dgn panggilan apa?
> gojes gal
> sudala.. im proud wit my ori name oredi.. ^^

8. Tag lagi 6
1) mui2
2) Floe
3) Huda Neechan
4) Firhan
5) HAfidz
6) NAsrul

9. Sapa No 1 pd anda?
my x tutomate masa kml dlu.. kn mui..

10. Orang nombor 3 ada hubungan dengan sesiapa?
ade ke kak?? huhu.. i remain silent 4 dis one...

11.Kata sesuatu berknaan dengan orang nombor 5
wei!! pendrive aku ilang ko x ganti lagi!!

12. Bagaimana pulak dengan orang nombor 4?
my bestfren!! i miss u buddy!! (huhu mo blik sabah!!)

13. Siapakah orang nombor 2?
flora rashidah, my pren yg skrng jg ayu+ ganas, cuz da jd gojes tp terer tekwando...

14. Bagi pesanan pada orang nombor 6?
" Nas, lets do the best in everything k??"

this holiday...

2009-11-30T23:56:00.000-08:00

look, i didnt go home 2 my parents these holidays(which make them soo mad) but nvm... im sacrificing myself for debate as debate brings joy in my life(weelll at sum part). i luv my team n oso not 4get 2 mention my cute coach.
i oso went 2 kl last hari raya aji n then go 2 n9 n oso melaka in da same day..( sweet ey) haha.. im enjoying my time herela.. i cant wait 4 royals at UM..

our jouney began..

2009-11-21T19:36:00.000-08:00

royal is days away... were nervous.. heres wat we have done..

i Heart Taylor Lautner

2009-11-04T21:42:00.000-08:00

17 but heavily muscled, sexily mussed n definitely gorgeous.. n foremost attractive.. didnt notice him dat mush in twilight. but since ive read de whole series.. OMG. i got this thrilling adrenaline rush!! how i wished 2 met him rite now.. got distracted by him like every second!! ah~ bottom line: i heart jacob black!!

piZZa Hut.....

2009-11-02T16:50:00.000-08:00

istly tq abg anas!!! 4 TAKING UDS 2 PIZZA HUT, DELIBERATELY, n blanja us MAKAN.. hehe.. luv u 4 dat.. anyway it happen just last nite n we makan2 till full of coz nothing is in order since raihah cant stop talking bout her kapal n charterer n arol cant stop selling his sampah2... oph god.. haha.. papa pn everyone hv a great time(hell yeah lagi2 kene sponsor) haha.. tq abg!!

AddiCtiOn..

2009-10-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

I never knew that twilight series can impact me this bad
i keep on wanting to reread the books, not to mention this but its mt exams week for god sake
im putting too much on the line here
yet, i cant stop
why cant i stop?
surely even i don't know the answer
argh..
this is not good
i really wanted 2 score my exams
i wanted 2 b in the dean list so bad
so bad that ill kill 4 it
but still
why cant i get over twilight n get str8 2 work
this cant change the fact that im craving for more of this series
owkey, twilight, new moon, eclipse, n breaking dawn
urgh
this is irritating
i want 2 4get and read it again at the same time
why am i behaving like this again?
this is even worse than harry potter fever i used 2 had before
it is even harder
im kinnda attached to the novels ive re read it a thousand time oredi
not to mention this week
point is i cant stop reading n the impact from it is brutal...
i even dreamt about it at night
good lord, this conflict is even worse than having war with ur boyfriend.
arghh.. gotta shake this off...
Need 2 focus on xms..
But da problem is , how??
Im lost… =(

Com Sc PosTer PresenTation..

2009-10-20T13:16:00.000-07:00

This weeek is hectic like weeks befre.. da only diff is there is an exhibition of posters..
ourgroup do 'extraction of essential oil from black peper and thyme by superheated steam' its a paper presentation actually, were only doing it out of scientific paper that oredi established.. hehe...

Hari Raya uPdaTes

2009-10-10T18:32:00.000-07:00

sekian lama menyepi.. besala bz ngan tugasan lepas raya(byk pula 2..) huhu. so, last hari raya, our theme is Blue... hehe.. raya b4 ni blue-grey.. so my sis n i cr kain yg sm n wat baju sama.. huhu.. last time pkai bj kain sama is when my cousin kawin 3 taun lepas.. n we beraya x sedar diri.. frenz pn ada dtg rumah, kal, cap, lijan, mazlan, hafiz, fitri.. dll.. sgt byk smmpai sakit otak mo ingat.. haha... sampai umt pula, we did raya celebration on our own jgk.. kat rumah Pn. Rozita lor... heheh.. skali ngan besday party... pas 2 skali wit all my kosmet, mpegimenyerang rumah Aini Nawi cuz die wat open house... Time kaseh kpd LUQMAN yg jd driver amik aku bwk ng open house 2..^^ hehe... nila da picz..

selamat HAri RAya!!!

2009-09-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

kepada semua yg mengenali diri ini,
mintak maafla.. di sebabkan kemelesetan ekonomi, suma posmen amik cuti.
tepaksala aku post kad raya d sini...
selamat hari raya..
maaf zahir batin...

kesibukkan yang melanda..

2009-09-01T22:12:00.000-07:00

haha.. selamat posa every1.. nak story wat epen sepnjang posa neh.. hehe
1. makan bukak posa ngan rumet ku yg sengal, kak anis, n kawan kak anis dkt khairol tomyam.. hehe.. kol 6.40 ktorg da tepacak kat situ.. semangat mo buka... haha.. padahal buka kol 7.17 malam...

2.ade recrutment sife br.. jenuh air lior den teng pasal sife.. huhu.. nsb bek rami gak interested

3. ade gema merdeka kat hostel..mcm mcm game ade...

4. miting perjumpaan Demi tp lupe tangkap gambar cuz so busy..
5. miting Majlis Bukak Posa DHC+BioD..

hehe.. saje nak update sbnrnye....

patah tumbuh hilang berganti..

2009-08-26T20:03:00.000-07:00

huhu.. dats wat they say.. tp ak tetap ckp!! yg tumbuh xkan sama ngan yang patah n yang diganti xkan sama ngan yang hilang.. gtu la jgk nag kesah jam aku 2.. huhuhyu... sbnrnya nak crita semalam2 aku kuar nagbn sky n fuza.. tq sky yg bwk keta tuk teman fuza setel kat celcom centre(alhmdulilah dah) n 2 buy nu watch 4 me!!
(cant stand life w/o it..) c my nu watch!!hehe pink.. sumting ill neva attemp kalo biukan kerna sky n fuza.. but when lagi nak tuka style?? haha..

MAndi, JAm, FAcebOOk, bROADABAnd dan puAsa..

2009-08-22T18:41:00.000-07:00

tgk tajuk macam gempak kn?? hehe.. pada ari jumaat lalu.. aku, james, huda neechan n ali pegi mandi laut kat pantai tok jembal 2.. hehe.. mulanya nak jalan2 je..tibe2 james tegedik2 nak mandi, ak ngan kak huda support jerla... haha.. aktiviti dimulakan dengan amik gambar melompat!!

seterusnya pegi dalam air n mandi!!

hehe.. n den da cam whoring n fun starts.. we pegi bergumbira sampai tahap tak sedar diri...

den a prob arise after dat.. sampai kat bilik br perasan my WATCH IS MISSING!! ala!! thats one of my fav!! not 2 mention boleh kira baru cuz waranty dia pn lum habis lg....(i'll b scolded 4 sure)mom sory~ ive wasted ur money...T_T sedih....
sob..sob..
and then i mo problem menimpa.. my facebook olmost kena banned!! x tawla.. but every time i want 2 make a comment dia suruh verify cuz dia ckp im engaging in abusive behavior n can be banned!! what?? i neve did nothing wrong!! i kan budak baik!!! huhuhuhu.. why la???

sangat x puas ati!!!
nak atw kenapa aku sangat rajen on9 kebelakangan ini? haha tnhnx 2 mahfuzah!!! die ar pnjmkan brodban!! haha.. fuza, i syg u lebih...

next is saya dengan in ingin mengucapkan selamat berpuasa kepada semua yang mengenali diri ini(poyo pulak)hehe... slamat sahur, posa n berbuka every1...

k lah. till nex tyme.. da~ wink*

Printer baru!!!

2009-08-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

i got nu printer thnx to abg yg bwk me g bli masa pc fair last time.. its Canon Pixma IP 1980.. latest model they say.. da outcome is nice oso so i like... it cost me bloody RM138 but da thing is thereis no driver cd.. i omost go kaboom when i found dis out..(sampai bilik baru bukak) huhu..hell la dat company which shouldnt be named!!! gud ting i donlod da driver fm internet...

ni printer rum8.. anis n kak anis(name sama)due2 sengal!!

Kursus Asas Keusahawanan 2009

2009-08-19T16:10:00.000-07:00

demi mengisi masa cuti ni, ak pown join ar.. sebeno eh.. cutini ak reserve tuk GSD, tp x taw cemana GSD ditangguhakn cuz UPM tutup kena H1N1 aritu pnye kes tak selesai lg.. so im left boredla dis olidey.. huahua... dipendekkan cita.. aku ter jmpa ita, isik borang n trus g kursus ni.. mantap x?? haha.. kursusni buat dkt Bukit Kluang Resort.. khabarnya tmpatni 5 star tp.... ok la.. die pnye accomodation ok wat... satu bilik share 2 org, 1 bilik got 1 double bed, 2 single bed or i house wit 2 rooms wit 1 double bed n 4 singles.. haha.. mewah x mewah wa ckap lu.... its good la... i mean da accomodation n all. aktiviti2 ktorg mcm besa la ceramah fm SME bank, SSM, En.Bob, Ust.Rizwadi last but not least MARA.. informatif la if nak bukak company lps ni, i dah ada basic... hehe. we even got games ya noe, men saham n jual2, jual betol2... hahar...
tp tak bole lupa musti ada side aktiviti.. hehe.. mandi lam kolam!!!! ble lg er... haha best2..
masa aktiviti 2 group ak name SUKSES dan buat company SPORT GEAR BERHAD yg akan jual alatan sukan.. grup ktog mmg mantap ar biopown masa aktiviti kasot telor 2, kasot ktorg jew pecah(ust. berat sgt kut......)haha.. pape pown.. kursus ni santai ip informatif.. da way i like it!!
heres sum pics!!

Berjaln -jalan d bandar..

2009-08-19T15:56:00.000-07:00

triple last week i think, we went 2 town nak temnkn my friend g celcom cntre.. dah 2,tgk2.. clcom centre out of servis cuz dorng tgh upgrade system.. cian my fren(luckyly u bli brodban celcom 2 kat kampus fuza lg murah.. ^^) den, we all jalan2...g bli tiket bas IEja.. den im left 2 date.. hik2..(ni yg ak ska ni..) muax luv korang ^^... den we jalan lag g thai xpo, (n lose so much money!!) and den, we go makan2... hehe... fuzah blanje..^^ Aizee is being such a sweetheart, dealing wit us.. tq AIzee, jasamu dikenang.. huhu.. gentlemen gler.... sweet...
wawa.. nak date lg ngan korang!!!

Pegi Rumah Mak Angkat ..

2009-08-19T15:19:00.000-07:00

hehe... lame.. br free nak cerr, last time.. pegi rumah mak angkat.. Dekat Kg. Gemuruh.. x Jaoh sgt bout 20 min journey jew.. so pegilar ngan xrum8 dlu..(skrg still tnggal asrama tp jarang jmpae-padahal slalu jew lepak bilik dorng ;p) hehe.. oleh kerana ain ade kete, maka ktorng pown mengambil kesempatan beronggeng tak sdar diri smapai malam.. hehe... xla.. ktorng g dtran shahbandar jew.. b4 2 ktorg melantak makan dlu dkt chicken rice shop. har2.. pnoh semeja...

mase kat shahbandar 2, ktorg x melepaskan peluang pegi tandas xklusif yg bayor 50sen br leh pakai.. ble tahanla.. besih, luas n selesa.. hehe..
tandas pn nak promot.. stelelah whoring byk2 dkt port shahbandar 2...
satu pengalaman menakutkan belaku.. ade sorang mamatni, memula isap rokok, pas 2 die tgk kitorg mcm 3 org jew kan, die pn cuit kawan dia... masa 2 ak dah cuak2.. tap tabahkn ati.. dia buang rokok 2 n menuju tmpat kitorng. kitorng pn merapatkan diri 2geder geder n rasa cuak sesangat. sampai kat kete, kitorng trus konci pintu.. mamat 2 org 2 pown patah balik n nek keta.. 15 minet jgk kut ktorng tnggu br keta mamat 2 blah.. pengajarannya.. jangan lepak ol gurls dkt kt tetengah malam.. bahaya... huhu..

debat Merdeka n Bday PArty...

2009-08-14T06:27:00.000-07:00

da lame x post.. ni nak cerr la...
last nite g anta bebudak yg nak g dbt merdeka kat van nak g USIM....
Helmy, ahawk, nas, shafiq n azwan, wat lek lok eh...
aku mendoakan korang
kepada sume geng2 yang tak balik cuti neyh, jom kita bersama2 memenuhkan kafe baru!!
online 24/7
pas 2 ade surise bday party tuk kaka ana...

bday 2 dianjurkn oleh bf kak ana , TAUFIK!! sweet!!!^^
heres sum peek at wut eppen...

SIFE MEETING!!~ huhu many ppl missing....

2009-08-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

Walaupun x brape meriah, agenda pasa malam ini mudah,

1. wat carta organisasi
2. bincang sustainability prjct
3. bincang project br..

rasaya x perlu ak ulas pnjang lebar...sbb assignment n quiz sdg menunggu..
till nex time hehe.. =)

Debate Meeting...

2009-07-31T09:28:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i wrote.. hehe vry bzla.. plus lappy rosak agi.. now thnx 2 fauzi, my lappy is good again.. sa, nak story neh.. eh jap.. nak gtaw that we DEmi members got in2 meeting last nite at nu Cafe.. it Suck.. not bda meeting but da environment..
dahla hujan, everyone mcm berkampung kat c2 pulak cuz many thing is going on la dkat nu kafe 2..
pendaftaran usrah la, nek gunung la, prjmpaan ko-k la.. huhu.. and so many more n prjumpaan Demi is one of it... aiyo.. very inconvenient la.. n 2 make things worst ade H1N1 screening lg dkt B2.. aiyo... full of virusla!!!! very contagious...
tapi sbb smgt debat yg tnggi ktorg truskan meeting gak.. so heres sum view on da members....

hi there.. been a while s

basically what we do is we learnt how to open da concept n stance.. all by Aizat(thnx).. sumtin eppen but dun wana disscuss here.. anyway.. as many of da juniors n even senior r still confused, 7 August we will held a Debating Workshop 2 refresh our rusted skills.. huhu.. n by a way Jimmy, hope u datang la.... =_=

OreNtasi BiO 09

2009-07-24T21:05:00.000-07:00

haha.. sbnarnya mo upload psal sife tp.... gmbr x amik lg.. so upload psal orentasi kos semalam dlu.. huhu..
pagi dimulakan dengan rakyat bio bkumpol dknt pekrgn B1... pas2, kami pn jalan p pantai ramai2....

pas2 ktorng pn pg bersenam robik diketuai Lyn!!!
den bhg2 kumpulan .. nila kum aku.. FAYMES PINK!!! fasi ialah ak n aziarh.. mmg kami sengal tp vouge... nama pelik sket sbb msti guna initial stp org dlm group jew ....

ade kiorg suroh crk kakak fasi.. bebudak ni plak kene dera crik aku.. dorg bg int jew.. aku plak tanak ngaku.. cian dorng tepaksa kene buli.. haha.....

pas 2.. ktorg pn wat Kontra king n Quen... haha lawak.... bebudak pn support jew... sengal...

den rehat makan2... smbung blik petang 2.. ktorg wat aktiviti men pasir plak.. siap sedut air pantai.. uwekk masin.. da la panak.. flasid lidah aku....

den ktrg men pasir!!! buat menatang2..... kiteogn pnye ketam paling lawa....

haha.. dlm pape keadaan pn ak ttp maintain comel...

nilah barisan fasi yg ada...

ups dan tak lupa kwn ku sorng ni.. hehe AIN!!!!

Again With SIFE n Pesta Konvo

2009-07-16T21:15:00.001-07:00

BaLoon At konvofeast

SIFE famly discussing bout our project

bit of konvoFeast

a'an trans4mation haha..

Booth Urusetia Konvo

Org surau wat show

my 'tattoo'

Tiresome......

2009-07-14T11:34:00.000-07:00

wat2 bz,. padahal tgk muvi

ni plak ngah men game...

yg ni mmg brtrus trg pnat.... acap pnye kepale kene support oleh bantal lutsinar.. sape x nmpak......

as 4 me....
TiRed.. Huh, dat word didnt even rep da felin dat i hv 2day.. Konvo, Demi, Sife n Clases.. God... So many things 2 do so lil tyme.. huhu.. not 2 mention dat da rest of da week is so bz... heres sum vies on our meetin.. god its almost 3 o clock oredi n im still here.. 2 moro will be da konvo dey!!!! heLL!!!! sLeepy.. Dang it!!

sangat bosan

2009-07-07T23:55:00.000-07:00

huhu.. br brAPE ARI MSK UmT da rase penat gler... huhu... KKS < SIFE< DEMI< STUDY.. huhu sume kne wat.. rase nak mati.. kejap da kelas.. bilik kene kemas.. blum ckp, skrg musim durian.. aku pn balun durian sesuka ati... tq fari yg bwkkn ak durian.. haha.. smpai tecocok jari kulit derian...

skrg plak tgh sebok sife ngan demi.. ade program.. cm bz jew sem nih.....

nila.. muke2 org tgh bengang wat keje...

tag Huda NeechAN

2009-07-06T17:44:00.000-07:00

people i tag:
1. WeoW
2. WALton
3. Wawa
4. kiMun
5. Sisie
6. Mui2
7. Hafiz
8. floE
9. mon2

how do you know 1?
sana KMHell.^^

what would you do if you never meet 2?
idu jg mc bah..

what would you do if 3 & 4 dated?
haha.. imposibble...

would 5 & 6 make a good couple?
aiya.. lesbian karang....

do you think 7 is attractive?
ya la 2...

would you date 8?
buli, as a flen la..

tell me something about 9
very pandai la dis girl.. n cute 2..

what's 1's favourite past time?
aku pla taw..

what language does 2 speaks?
Melayu, English, Cina, Kadazan

who is 3 going out with?
tia taw la..

how old is 4?
23 tahun

when was the last time you talked to 5?
1 tahun sda.. ym jak kn...

who is 6's favorite singer?
yg ptg jiwang la..

would you date 7?
On je....haha.

is 8 single?
tida.. 2 tu bf dia

what's 9's last name?
lewinski.. kaka nadkla.. ratnam

2009-06-25T16:51:00.000-07:00

whoEee.. ive been xtremly Bz This last SchooL Olidays.. Bros, sis, cousins….hehe... me n my cousin at the Sipitang kenduri... last week Mentioning lots of MarriGe Feast Invitation... When I Say lots it means LOTS... Talk about 8 marriage a week in my kampong only... haha... holiday attraction ey... eventhough we were invited 2 go to almost all of the wedding, we cant afford 2 go 2 all... duh busy week it is.. Going 2 a wedding in kampong means you have 2 contribute some labor n money 2 it... not just come, eat , congratz on ur wedding and blast of... its all about taking part in the cooking activity and sum spring cleening.. I’m talking about peeling onions (get ready for teary eyes...), ginger n garlic, not to mention, cleaning the chicken, chopping the meat... and cleaning the BLOOD after chopping is done.. Washing and drying TONS of dishes and paying the gas for coming... C... I told ya its not an easy work... anyway.. 1 of my friend gets married last week... SHAHFARIZAH ZULKIFLI... i wish ur marrige will bring lots of happiness to you...God Bless... ^^ went wit fellow friend... its a good place of reunion (and a cost saving one too...) ah, YEs... i even went for computer literature in the ict center in the kampong.. Hehe... nowadays... even kampong ppl thinks that its better to get ur stuff online and sell em on line... we were thought the basic interrnet n blogging... actually I’m there on a reason.. I wanted 2 studies excel but I entered the wrong course... but what is the harm on relearning sumting u oredi knew..... ah yes it was tadau kaamatan last time rite... I catch this ppl making a performance in center point.. there is also the under 15 football team coming.. did I mention they were in kk for AFC? not Asian food channel, its Asian Football club. talk about ppl fm Thailand, aussie n many mo coming 4 da tournament.. ah.. whats a holidey without a gettaway..
we were out headin 2 DZ RESORT n waterfall.. spending a nite, n alot of time splashing in the waterfall making my bro eyes all red and sore.. but they just couldn’t resist the water.. my mom n dad are oso taking their time.. wee..... its been a blast.....

2009-06-01T22:44:00.000-07:00

seeing dis photo suddenly made me miss da uni!! dang!! i still want 2 be in olidey mood.. why la dis photo atract my attention ol of a sudden.. haha..
i luv every one in da photo, pah, jolly, feyda,fatin, Lynda, eja, Ijah, syikin n eca.. ala missed u guys.. c ya when next sem start.. = )
haha.. actually nak post sum other stuff but.. limited time.. my sis is cryin 2 use da internet.. besala.. cuti skola kn.. huhu.. da~