Monday, November 29, 2010

AKU.DIA.RAKAN2

perlukah menjauh dgn alasan
"xmo kaco korng. kn dah bahagia besama"
when all this while u guys had been
"wani jon this, jom that.. did u noe bout..... "
now all i heard is
"yalah, org 2 dah ad aixe kan...."

rarely heard
rarely talk
rarely hang out

wats my life current status?


i used 2 luv my life
i still am..
but i used 2 be dis carefree-do what i want-hang out with everyone- type og girl
now?
..........

they said, thye feel hepi 4 me..
good
they say im lucky 2 hv him
good
they say im happier now that im with him
good

they say dey dun want 2 hang out cuz kacau daun
MISTAKE
they say i owez went out with him only wen they x ajak me out?
MISTAKE
they say they r not needed wen i hv him wen i owez hv him b4
MISTAKE

this is d situation
before and after
which makes me pretty sad
n obviously im touched by d ignorance around...

used 2:
lepak 2gether
huhaa huhaa new story
tellin2 wats happening in life
talk bout dis gojes guy sumone just met
go karoke-ing till throat goes sore
eating 2gether...
cathing up with each other
laughing @ each other..

now?
no more


so bc 2 d conclusion....
he is d only one dat i hv left...
wont u understand why i spend most of my time dating?

Thursday, November 25, 2010

my hearts go la la la la...

JIWANG MODE: ON!

hahaha... ok i have 2 admit.. im more on the heart stuff lately... not because i malas want 2 update my activity(banyak kot!!)but cuz hearts matter matters these days...

do you know that song goes
"begini lamunan asmara
sehari bagaikan setahun ,lamanya
terpisah di saat rindu yg membara
kau jauh dari mata..."

amy mastura- lamunan asmara


dat is exactly what i felt currently. huh... missing dat person real bad!! i wish i can wrote da name but i cant!! T_T... he likes secrecy so i do respect his privacy...

if you do know suzzane's song's muah
sing it with me!!!

Sungguh aku sayang
Sungguh aku rindu
Ha ha ha usah kau ragu-ragu

Sungguh aku cinta
Sungguh aku mahu
Ha ha ha ku tidak malu-malu


Sayang oh sayang
Ku sayang kepadamu (muah)
Aku cintakan dirimu
Rindu oh rindu
Ku rindu padamu (muah)
Janganlah kau pergi dariku


Papa tolonglah (papa)
Mama tolonglah (mama)
Aku sedang mabuk cinta
Dengan si dia (ah ha)
Si jantung hatiku (ah ha)
Yang ku puja ku cinta selalu

Mama tolonglah
Papa tolonglah
Jodohkanlah aku dengannya

Hati hati yang merindu
Inginkan belaiannya
Hari hari yang berlalu
Indahnya ku rasakan
Jiwa jiwa (jiwa jiwa)
Ku meronta (ku meronta)
Bila jauh di sisimu (di sisimu)
Berjanjilah kasih
Berjanjilah sayang
Hanyalah aku di hatimu

Mama tolonglah
Papa tolonglah
Jodohkanlah aku dengannya

adoi.. im drunk!!
love drunk!!!!
OMG OMG OMG!!

kes parah dah daku nia....
isk3!


u!! me miss u!!!
<3

Sunday, November 14, 2010

my prayers for now

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

tiba-tiba kan??
tulah..
org slalu ckp
langit x slalunya cerah
ada masa mendung dan hujannya
laut x slalunya tenang
ada musim gelora dan monsoonnya
hati x slalunya berbunga
ada masa luka dan sakitnya..

eh? ade ke org ckp mcm aku ckp
ah biarkan....

hmm..
aku dah selalu sgt mcmni..
parahni..
mcm im losing my old self

keja tetep keja..
lab tetap lab
kelab tetap kelab
hidup rasa makin gelap

pretending is not something im good at
im usually good with honesty
being another person thats wasnt me..
huh.. this university had taught me the lesson of hypocracy

again.. im tumbling up and down
drowning in a word i myself created
wishing for a perfect everything..
but everything is just ist there in reality

u came fulfilling my fantasy
so i began to ask more and more
u brought my dreams to life

now im crushing it all again
bits to bits
only i can understand
im selfish i noe
but lets see how long u can keep up with me..
ive warned u i do...

think baby think....

im a mess to handle
hard but fragile
fun but sulky
hepi but blues
yup thats me

i demand a lot
i gave a lot
i want a lot..

huh..
i hate it when my heart got that crack2..
pedih wen i applied antiseptic 2 it..
sakit wen it heals
den dat crack crack again....
pain in the A** kan..
haisy..
wat 2 do.. fragile...
so i pray..

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

Friday, November 12, 2010

confession part 1

kau tanya padaku
apa pandangan ku padamu
aku tekedu
terdiam membisu
sebenarnya aku malu
malu mengungkap kata
merungkai bicara hati..
ahhh.. bukan kau tidak tahu
tp kita manusia perlu assurance & kanformasi
ak paham dan mengerti
maka terciptalah puisi ini

ini kata hati
lahir dari nurani
andai terkesan pada diri
hanya maaf ku dahului..

kau sabar
itu paling utama
kau cool itu yg kedua..
romantik? u can be..
but most importantly u c..
kau buat aku hepi...

runtun hati bila x jumpa
rindu nak bersua muka
hati jd gundah gulana
makan kenyang tp tdo x lena..

sensitif itu kurang...
emosi terluah kadang2..
rahsia tersimpan kedap x jarang...

kau perahsia aku tahu
lebih kurang misterius g2...
tapi itu yg attract aku
terasa ingin tahu & curious selalu
mcm hari2 ada surprise menunggu...
[LIKE]

hahaha...

sampai sini dulu part ini
kita sambung dilain kali
bukan mengelat selamatkan diri
cuma simpan kata2 utk di lain hari...

<3~

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

to be or not to be

i thought im d luckiest girl in the world wen i noe about it.
i noe.. pasan gla kan??
tp pecayalah im d hepiest gal on earth pd masa itu..

we hang out, we stare, we laugh, we share
we attend to each other desire
seeing u fulfill mine,
n seing me fulfill yours..

days get older
we grew mesra-er..
n d day neva had enough hour in our clock.

the holes in my heart r filled
as u fill my days with colors.
im hepi seyesly!!

den i get more demanding by d day
sory its in my nature
everything is not enough
but i want it..
like so bad..
but u got matters to attend to
stuff to do
beside being with me
i noe i ask a lot
yes im a fisherman now...
i sell fish!

im holding it all down now
im retrieving myself back
getting into my priority list
i want to get a grip of my life dat i lost sumwhere...

dang, can u at least gimme the strength 2 do it
i require attention, love n commitment
all those things dat u say u gv
deep inside ur heart where i couldnt c it..

dun wory
ill be owkey
i think
soon,
but not now
now im mending myself
even moo cant chill me

my forsaken heart that i took back...

Sunday, November 7, 2010

hati bentuk heart

heart shaped hati.. boleh x?? hahaha... curently in drunk state.. n craving 4 mo.. owez more!! OMG... LOVE DRUNK! hahahahahah..